Helpless (Gfriend Eunha Fanfiction)

Twelve

EUNHA POVS

"Why are you crying?" I turn around to find all of the members are standing in front of my room.

I wiped my tears. I know I'm crying but I had no idea they're in front of my room.
"I'm watching a sad drama." I lied.
Its just I'm holding my phone so its the perfect lie. I was looking at my family picture.

"Ah. That must be sad." Jin says sympathetically.
"Yeah. I need to meet Sejin hyung first. Will you guys be alright?"
"Of course." Rap Monster nod.
"I'll get going then. And don't go out while I'm gone. I'll be back in fifteen minutes." I say before leaving.
"Okay." They all replied.

"WHAT?! You're going to quit?!" Sejin roars in front of me.
"Umh.. I'm sorry." I say.
"Why? You've only work here for two days. Are the boys troubling you?" He looks so disappointed.
"No. I don't have any complaints while working with all of you. My family wants me back."
"You're quitting too?" I turn around at Hobeom's voice, standing in the door way along with Mingyu.
"You can't! If both of you are quitting, we'll be in trouble." Hobeom runs to me.
Mingyu is quitting? Why? Wait. It doesn't matter.

"My family wants me to go back, hyung." I feel like I've been lying thousands time already but if I want my family to be safe, I need to go back to Daegu. Far away from him. Mingyu.

"I'll tell Bang PD nim about this. Your salary will be transferred to your bank account." Sejin looks gloomy.
"No need. I didn't do anything these past two days. I'm not taking my salary." I say. I'm not going to accept it when I'm doing nothing. It makes me feel worthless.
"But.. Its your salary." Hobeom steps in.
"Its fine. Don't worry about it. I'll leave tomorrow morning." I say.
"If you change your thoughts, feel free to come back." Hobeom says.
"Thank you, hyung." I shake both of their hands even though I'm sure I won't be coming back.

"You're quitting?" I was startled to find Mingyu in front of the member's van, parked in front of Sejin's home.
"Yeah." I need to keep my distances to keep my family safe. I walk to the member's home.

I hate how I have to obey Mingyu's grandmother words. I feel powerless. I'm angry that I can't hang out with Mingyu anymore. He's the only guy friend I have that doesn't get scared of me. The closest one to me. But I can't do anything about it. Because I'm a dust.

"You're back." J-Hope greets me the moment I step into the dorm.
"Yeah. Where are the others?" Suga and Jimin are missing.
"Sleeping. Well, Jimin is taking a shower." He replies.
"Eat your dinner." Jin point to my meal.
"Thank you." I sit and begin to eat it.

"Eunha?" I jump at Jungkook's voice. I was planning to leave without telling the members because I know I'll look pathetic if I do so. As a fangirl, who wants to leave their bias?
"Yes, Jungkook?" I had no choice but to turn around and response to him.
"Where are you going?" He looks alarmed when he notice my suitcase.
"Aren't you suppose to be sleeping?" I'm not answering his question.
"I rarely sleep because I'm doing lots of things to please our fans. Answer my question."
"Daegu." I mumbled but I'm pretty sure he heard it because he stiffened.

"You're quitting?" He widen his eyes.
"Yes. My family wants me back. I'm sorry I can't do proper good bye but tell the rest of the member to stay healthy." I roll my suitcase before I do anything stupid.

I froze when I saw Mingyu is in front of the car that Sejin hyung will drive me to the airport.
"Jung Eunbi. You remember me, don't you?" He asks sharply. I flinched a bit. I'm not a good liar.
"I don't. I've told you before." I look at his eye for a second before pretending to check my phone.
"Don't lie. Is it because of my grandma?" I stiffened. How did he know?
"How do I know doesn't matter. Its okay to be around me now. My grandma admit her mistake. She's scared I'm going to disobey her if I'm with you but I told her about you. She understands and allow you to stay with me. Your family will be safe." He explains.

I stay silent. Mixed emotions are battling inside me.
"Just because I know the truth now doesn't mean I'll stay in here." I walk past him to open the car but he prevent it by holding my shoulder.
"I know what my grandma did is wrong. But please. Stay." He look at me with appealing eyes.

"I- I don't know." The truth is, I don't want to leave. After all these years, I'm happy I've meet him again. My best friend. But at the same time, I refuse to be happy.
"Since when you know about this?" I ask sharply.
"Six months after you're gone."
"You didn't try to look for me? Your grandmother has all sorts of contacts that you can use to find me. At least tell me that my family don't have to live in fear anymore! Do you know how guilty I feel for putting my family in danger? Just because I'm friends with you but I can't blame or hate you because deep down I know its my fault!" I pour everything out. I was panting by the time I'm done yelling.

"Grandma died a month after I found out about it. My parents are busy in maintaining our business to stay on top while grieving for their loss. I was grieving too. Losing you and my grandma at the same time. I can't ask for you when my parents are trying so hard." He reply calmly despite my yelling.

I stay silent. Its news for me. When I was in Daegu, I would distance myself from news on television or my friends gossips about his grandmother. Because if I did I would feel terrible again.
"I'm sorry. I had no idea." Is all I could say to him.
"Do you forgive me now?"
"Yeah. Its a misunderstanding. We'll keep in touch. Okay?" I smile.

"I canceled your plane ticket." He did what?!
"What?!" I yelled at him. That ticket is quiet expensive and I buy it with my own money!
"I'm sorry but I had to. So you won't leave." He looks sorry and that makes me harder to stay mad at him. Mingyu has always been kind towards me and I'll always feel guilty if I get mad at him.

"Well, it already happens so we can't do anything about it." I smile sadly.
"I just want you to stay."

He suddenly hug me tightly.

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