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For Ayah: You have anorexia (Harry imagine)

For Ayah: You have anorexia (Harry imagine)

QOTD: what would you like to take up as a profession in the future or if you already have an occupation, what is it? I would like to be a counsellor :)

Please take a few minutes of your time to read the A/N at the end. It's important. Thanks :)

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Running your hand over your flat stomach you examine your reflection in the full length mirror. Your eyes roam from your bony face to your stick like arms to your skinny legs. You shake your head in disappointment. You couldn't help but eat that donut yesterday and now you already gained fats. You shake your head again and slip on a dress before going out to sit with Harry.

"Hey babe. I ordered Thai for dinner. Is that okay?" He asks you as you plop down next to him. In your head, you're thinking about all the calories in Thai food but nod and give a small smile to Harry because you don't want to worry him. The two of you watch television as you wait for the food to arrive. Soon, the bell rings when Harry opens the door, the aroma of green curry chicken floats towards you, making you feel hungry but you control your urges to eat because you can't gain anymore weight.

You take as little food as you can without making Harry suspicious and nibble on it. Harry finishes two plates of rice and green curry and one plate of Pad Thai but you are not even halfway through your first plate.

"What's wrong? Why aren't you eating? Don't you like it?" He asks in confusion and worry.

"It's nice but I'm just not hungry." You state with a small smile and let your fork fall onto your plate with a "clunk" sound.

"Ayah, are you sure you're fine? You haven't really been eating much recently." He states with furrowed eyebrows. Your heart rate picks up as you are afraid that he will find out.

"N-no. In fine Harry really." You stutter as you try to convince him. He gives you a look you can't decipher before sighing and getting up to put his plate away. Once he goes back to the television, you rush into the kitchen and throw all the food on your plate out. You rush to the toilet as quickly as possible. Closing the door as quietly as you can, you stick two fingers into your mouth. You push them as far back as you can before bile rises up your throat and you vomit into the white marble sink. The door bursts open and there stands a furious Harry.

"What are you doing?!" He yells. You spot out into the sink and move back until you are in front of the bat tub.

"I-I can explain." You stutter, your voice hoarse and trembling with fear. You have never seen Harry so enraged.

"You can explain why you aren't eating? You can explain why you're making yourself vomit? You can explain why you're fucking anorexic?!" He screams with tears forming in his eyes. You shake with sobs as you drop down and sit on the edge of the bathtub.

"Yes I can! I'm too fat and I can't be with you if I'm too fat. Fans will make fun of you for going out with a fat girl!" You exclaim while trying to prove your point.

"No they won't! If they do then they aren't true fans and you shouldn't listen to them! I love you however you are. Fat or thin, don't you understand? I don't want you to starve yourself and vomit because you think you're fat. You're thinner than a stick. Not fat." He explains while holding your shoulders. Still sobbing, you hold onto Harry for support and bury your face in his chest.

"I'm sorry I can't help it. It's too late now and I don't know what to do. I'm going crazy!" You tell as you pull on your brittle hair.

"No you're not Ayah. Listen to me." He says and pulls away to look at you. After about a minute or two, you calm down slightly. Sniffing, you look at him with your blood red eyes.

"You're not crazy. You're going to get better, you hear me? I'm going to do everything I can, take you to the best doctors, get you the best treatment and we are going to get past this. Together." He states determinedly. You are unable to speak so you nod quickly before getting up to wash your face and rinse your mouth of the foul taste.

The very next day, Harry takes you to the best doctor in the UK to get you checked. Luckily for you, you haven't been anorexic for too long so it wouldn't be too hard for you to get better. It would be hard but not too hard.

As the weeks go by, Harry patiently helps you in increasing your food intake gradually and gives you a boost of confidence by doing little things to make you feel beautiful. He makes sure that you don't force yourself to vomit and stops you from looking at the amount of calories on packaged foods. Before you know it, you are better than you ever were and completely anorexia free. If you ever have doubts about your weight, Harry manages to convince you that you are perfect and don't need to worry.

It took a lot of hard work for you to believe that being skinny doesn't mean that you are beautiful. Beauty is what is inside and not what you look like. You are now very healthy and even give talks to students about your story.

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I would just like to say this to all of you reading this. If you ever feel that you aren't beautiful because the girl next door is skinnier and has better hair and stuff, DON'T. This line may be really overused but it's true. Beauty comes from the inside. It's who you are that matters, not what you look like. In life, what matters in the end is how you do the little things that make people happy, how you help people, how you change the world because of your personality and your talents. Not what you look like. You may look flawless but if you have a shit personality, it isn't going to matter.

So the whole point if this is, don't starve yourself, don't make yourself vomit and all those other things that make you anorexic. It isn't worth it. If you really want to lose some weight, do it within a limit and in the right way. Eat healthy foods and exercise. Its said, no pain no gain. Having a healthy diet and exercising is hard but it's better for you in the long run. Starving and vomiting is easy but it ruins your life if it gets too far. Remember this, you are beautiful. All of you. Big or small, tall or short, long hair or short hair, it doesn't matter. Looks aren't everything so don't do things that you will regret later on in life.

Also, if any of you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. I am willing to listen and maybe even help you if I can so don't be afraid to talk to me if you ever need someone to listen even if I'm not physically present with you.

That's the end of my little speech. Comment "I'm beautiful" if you read all that.

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