For Janice: He finds out that you cut (Niall imagine)

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by _VidhiS

by _VidhiS

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You have been feeling a bit depressed over the past few months because you got kicked out of your job and because of that, people you thought were your friends stopped talking to you. You are very hurt and upset but don't want to tell Niall about it because you feel like you would be a burden to him. With that thought constantly haunting you, you keep all your feelings to yourself until one day you can't stand it anymore. You need a release from this pain and you do something you never thought you had the guts to do.

Cut.

You grab a razor from the cabinet in your toilet and take a deep breath. Without thinking, you slide it across your wrist and the pain of that relieves you from all your other pain.

*two months later*

You have been cutting very frequently now because you still haven't found a job and you are getting more depressed than ever but cutting is your only getaway from that. Like always, you grab a razor and slide it across a slightly healed part of your arm. You are just about to cut another part of your arm when you hear Niall calling you.

"Janice love! Could you come here?" He asks from the living room, causing you to panic. You can't clean up so fast and you know he would come in if you didn't hurry so you quickly shout to him that you are coming and run your arm under tap water. You can feel the sting on your arm as you turn off the water and try to dry it.

Luck doesn't seem to be on your side as the bleeding doesn't stop. You run it under the water again in a futile attempt to stop the bleeding. You are feeling faint from all the blood loss and panic and a strangled sob escapes your mouth.

"Janice? Are you okay?" Niall calls and you can hear that he is closer to the toilet you are in. You quickly lock the door so that he can't come in and try to stop crying.

"I-I'm fine." You try to speak stably but the shakiness of your voice gives you away. You burst into tears yet again as Niall bangs on the toilet door and asks you to open it.

"Janice honey, open the door! You're scaring me!" He says worriedly from outside.

"No!" You exclaim and continue sobbing. Less than a minute later, you hear the door unlocking and you see Niall running to your side as your tears blur your vision.

"Janice what is this?!" He cries out in shock ad lifts your arm to see all of the cut marks. You are in no state to say anything so he carries you out to the living room and cleans your wounds as you cry. Once he wraps your wound in a bandage, he holds you close to him and mutters soothing words into your ears. After what seems like ages, you finally calm down and just sniffle a bit here and there.

"You can tell me what is happening whenever you're ready." Niall whispers softly, as if he is afraid to make you cry again. You nod and take a deep breath before telling him everything. He listens patiently and strokes your back as you explain everything.

There is a peaceful silence as he digests everything you have just told him and you feel as if a weight has been lifted from your shoulders.

"You can never be a burden to me. I love you and no matter what, I will support you and be by your side. You could have just told me and not gone through all this pain. Seeing you hurt hurts me. Don't ever do this again Janice or a swear I'll do something I might regret." He says shakily.

"I'm sorry." You whisper and hug him tight. "I'll never do this again I promise.

After that day, he helps you to find suitable job interviews and stays by your side as often as he can. You finally find a good job after a couple of tries and realize that you could have saved yourself so much trouble if you would have just done this in the first place. You make some new friends after a couple of months that you feel like you can trust and actually start enjoying life again.

The scars never leave your arms but they remind you constantly to never do something so horrible ever again.

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Where in the world has BeingAwesome99 been?

Even I don't know.

So I know this was a bit depressing but I hope you guys enjoyed it none the less and please vote and comment and follow if you like my imagines :D

I know I have a lot of imagines pending to write so I'm trying to write them just give me some (more) time to get my life back together because everything has been super hectic recently. Thanks for understanding :)

To those of you whose requests I rejected in really sorry but like I mentioned above I have a lot pending to write so maybe next time?

Dedicated to Janice439 for requesting this :)

Thank you for reading! :D

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