Bring Eyeliner (The Emo Trinity + Tøp) [COMPLETED-ish]

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Im currently  putting  my heart ,soul, blood,sweat, and tears into my passion. 

I  currently have five injuries, and im waiting to find out if I need a walking boot.

I have 5 weeks left until  the end of the dance season...... this is usually  when my depression  gets worse.........
Dance is my entire  life.
My classmates are my family...

I just dont....know what to do.

We had our last Pa de duex class today    and one of the guys was so sad  like it makes me cry to think about how sad he was.

I have now idea what im going to do this summer........ ...

Shit

Im crying.

Sorry you guys have to deal with me  like this.

I hate summer. I despise it.

To live happily,  I need time in the studio, because  I can truly  be myself  there. It's my home.

I don't  know. .. there is just something about creating art with your body.

The thrill of being on stage , the pride of being able to say "I'm a dancer", the confidence   felt when a little kid watches you dance in awe...... makes the neverending injury, drama,emotional  pain, fear,  and disappointment  worth it......

No matter what happens. ... I am and will alway be a dancer. Even if I cant dance.
When Im 90 years old and on my deathbed, I will  be a dancer.

Its the one thing I do that no one can touch.

I am a dancer.