I know I know
" will it even matter in the future? If no, there is no use stressing about it "
THAT DOESN'T FREAKING HELP.
it makes me more scared!!! More stressed!!!!!
I'm so weak Im scared of Everything.
Like? I've spent my entire childhood on this, if it isn't important in the future I've failed.
Also, I have a lyrical peice this year that I will not be able to perform without crying.
It's to say something, and it's a group dance. At the end. All of us "originals" (the og. 4) run away from the youngest of the four separately.
It signifies.... the fact that we all leave her.
A. One year.
S. In two years.
Me in three.I can't leave my family.
Also I have a lyrical solo this year that I'm going to freaking bawl about.
It's my choreography, to Elastic heart Piano Ver.
And I'm dedicating my performance of it to the Orlando shooting victims.
Idk im just scared of my future.
And my past.
And the present.
I can't talk about anything without crying
Also a family friend just got killed.
Murder suicide, gunshot wound. :/ I don't know all the deets.
(I'm fascinated with serial killers and stuff so.... I'm trying to get the deets lol
Gn/GM
-Ash
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