What's Inside?

I am tired

I'm scared to die.

Scared of what I will become.
To be those creatures that I've killed and been done,
Hiding it behind all my sarcastic alibis,
All of the profanity and lies,
All these lust and gluttony,
Within my wide vocabulary,
I can't even spit the fact that I'll never be free..
My only family will be left behind.
Be devastated from what I had done..
But what am I suppose to do?
Just leave him there to die?
It might be a selfish thing to do and say,
I'm tired of this life anyway.
What's more torture when all I get is that..
I can't accept the fact that I wouldn't always have his back..
And when I'm done, what about my brother?
I want him to be stronger,
And I know he is.
He's smart, he got plans, not like me.
All I could do is follow an order,
Like a mindless soldier...
I've given enough.. So much for everyone,
I just want this nightmare to be done.

I'm so lost.

Raised to be hunter, but what did it cost?
Saved this many lives and what did we get?
Creatures coming after us, countless deaths we regret
This mask that I've been wearing, it's all old and torn.
I don't think I could keep up with my game face anymore..
Torn apart between wanting to leave and willing to stay..
But one thing's for sure, I just want to keep my brother safe.
My only family left, I just have to be strong and brave,
Maybe one last time
As the battle goes by..

But...

I'm still so lost.
And I'm still scared to die.

But the battle's not over yet.

A: Supernatural theme poem based on the perspective of Dean Winchester, from Season 3.
Now brb while I swim in the corner with the river of my tears. (geez im only on three seasons man this show really flipped me over)