What's Inside?

Too Blinded

He reaches out through a single star
But the clouds are just too crowded for me to see
I raised my hands but you're just too far
Storms always swirling around me

Before, you're like a galaxy
Stars that shine that I always aspire to be
That strength to hold on up high
Dreaming that we could see each other fly

Now, like thunder noises air did smite
Becoming blurry in seeing the light
You try to help through simple but precious ways
But I let myself be focused on my negativity everyday

I appreciate them truly, yes!
'Why am I such a goddamn mess..'
Like bullets that hurtfully strikes
I don't have enough shield to stand up for a fight

I tried to find answers, but no one can give it
I tried to glue myself, bit by bit
But the arrows keep on crashing
It's been more than a year, why isn't it ending?

Is it not going to go away?
Am I miserable forever, in this case?
Why did I let myself be this bad..
Let myself to be a physical embodiment of sad.

A: I know I know I already used that last line on a poem before I just love that line okay fight me XD
also, credits for our jazz chant piece for being an inspiration on that "thunder noises.." line xD