What's Inside?

How Could You Say That?

I can't see you the same.
You feel so blurry and too distant
But... who's the blame?

The words repeating over and over
As it all turns into grey
Those yellow lights gets fader

So incomplete
Got trapped, deeply locked
Still in this state of shock
Words repeating, so done with this sh*t

Am I that much of a weirdo?

Don't I deserve being an honor?
Just because I'm.... different?
Maybe I'm just overthinking this
I know you didn't mean it

But those words still drop bullets in my brain
As my body shiver terrifingly
'It's just a joke, just a joke'
Still, it won't stop my world going blurry

Why am I so weak?
Why am I such a freak...
Nobody wants me
Not even he
He will not care
Would he?
Maybe he does..
Why isn't he doing anything?
I don't want to sound demanding..
I'll just be a burden to him..
A burden..
So blurry..

(A/N: ... yesterday and today had really hit me hard. Why.)