What's Inside?

me as lapis lazuli

Forever trapped in a mirror
Of apathy, filled with bitter
Forever drowning in chains
Unloved, and hiding in shame

I deserve the weight
Of the pressure of guilt on my shoulders
A lost key behind these fiery gate
Keep on pushing this huge boulder

Forever in dark blue
Like the ocean, a dark mystery of the abyss
Where you will find my truth
That I can never get the taste of your kiss.

And it's my fault.
I deserve this.

Here I trap myself in a vault,
Once loved, and should never be missed.

by you. and now i see.
im no longer your lapis lazuli.