I only want you (Sterek)

Chapter 22: The Story of Paige

Stiles and Lydia stayed over Allison's for the night. Both of them knew he was avoiding Derek but didn't say anything, they were surprisingly understanding. He knew he'd have to go home after he'd left school because he only spent two nights plus on top of that it was school nights, and though Allison didn't mind he felt Mr. Argent did, even if he had a smile plastered on his face as he welcomed Stiles to stay. He was happy he had to go to school before he could get home. But that became a disappointment when the school day seemed to pass by in a blur. Stiles hated that because every time he really wanted to get out of school to do something time dragged by as slow as a slug, but when he was trying to avoid doing something after school time seemingly sped up. He sighed as he pinched the bridge of his nose, walking to his jeep, Allison and Lydia flanked beside him. They walked in near silence, Lydia had been softly assuring Stiles to go and talk with Derek then avoid it.
"It's not just going to go away Stiles". She said as they walked.
"I know Lia but I... I just–
"Your just running from a minor tiff". Allison cut him off.
Stiles glared at her then spoke again, "you don't understand it's like I don't get anything but whiplash from Derek it's like I can get certain things from him", Stiles shrugged as they drew closer to the jeep, "not materialistic things, but things like you know kisses, hugs, and cuddling", he clarified seeing Lydia and Allison's face contort, "but with talking it's like we get there and like a plane everything comes crashing down and it's nothing but bitter silence and then we become distant". Stiles said as they stopped at his car.
"Lydia's right Stiles you two need to talk". Erica said as she stopped in front of them.
Lydia smiled at Erica's agreement and Allison smirked.
"See". Lydia beamed.
Somehow Lydia was always right, and Stiles loved and hated it sometimes.
"Uhh? Stiles stuttered squinting at Erica.
"I know I'm sorry I couldn't help but listen". She said throwing her hands up in defeat.
"It's okay". Lydia smiled.
"Speak for yourself". Stiles muttered
"Oh come on Stiles you know you want to talk to him". Lydia said before Erica could purse her lips to talk.
"No I don't actually". He said smugly, "and I wasn't trying to be rude it's just you be around Derek after school and I don't want him to smell me on you". Stiles told Erica feeling bad.
"It's okay Stiles I understand". She smiled.
"But you should really talk to him". They all looked to see Issac sitting peacefully on the hood of the car
"He's become quite exhausting". Boyd said as he flanked to Erica's side.
"And grouchy". Scott piped as he came into view from the other side of the jeep.
"And over all hurt". Jackson said as he stood next to Lydia.
"See even your pups say you should talk to him". Lydia pointed out.
Stiles mocked her, and stuck his tongue out at her. It wasn't until his tongue was back in his mouth had he realized Lydia said pups.
"Ohhhh no". Stiles said shaking his head, Lydia smiled, "oh no, nope uh ah". Stiles wiggled his finger through the air.
"Oh yes". Lydia smiled, "it's too late to say otherwise pack mom". She smirked.
Stiles rolled his eyes as soon as he heard pack mom. He looked around, before protesting, to see that everyone had been smiling feverishly at him, he groaned.
"I'm not pack mom". Stiles muttered
"Oh yes you are". Scott smirked
"No I'm not Peter is". Stiles said.
"No I'm not! Peter growled from behind them.
Great Stiles thought, while the others tensed up. Even though they were around Peter everyday they still didn't trust him, he was still working hard to prove he was trustworthy.
"Uh this is the schools parking lot". Stiles said pointing faintly around.
"Uhh I've been here numerous times". Peter reminded him.
"Fair enough". Stiles breathed shrugging, "but why are you here? Stiles asked.
"To find you". Peter said
"Why so you could tell Derek where I am? Stiles asked
"No". Peter said instantly, "I wanted to ask you to please talk to Derek, please". He added with a pout.
"See!? Lydia said throwing her hands up.
"Ugh okay fine". Stiles agreed
"Great". Issac smiled, "but back to who's pack mom". He began cautiously looking from Stiles to Peter, "I say it's you". He said pointing to Stiles, Stiles sighed looking at him like why?, "because Peter", he glanced at Peter, "no offense, but your not nice enough for me, you scare me". Issac finished as he stood closer to Stiles.
Stiles sighed in defeat and pulled Issac into a tight hug. Isaac smiled as he hugged back nuzzling under Stiles neck.
"Ahh group hug". Scott smiled opening his arms to join them.
"Scott no". Stiles protested.
"Group hug". Allison said following after Scott.
Stiles huffed still hugging Isaac, as everyone, but Peter, piled into a warm embrace. Stiles glanced at Peter like are-you-going-to-join? And Peter shrugged he wasn't sure he was welcomed into the hug.
"Just get over here". Stiles smiled assuringly.
Peter followed suit and they stood there hugging, some of the people who were still in the parking lot watched and Stiles stuck out his tongue like a three year old. He didn't care who was looking he was going to hug his pups and it wasn't nothing anyone could do about it.
"I love you mom". Isaac muffled he's head still under Stiles neck.
"We all love you mom". Scott corrected
"I love y'all too". Stiles smiled as he tried to hug them all but his arms weren't wide enough.
After another minute of hugging they all broke apart and split up, Lydia had warned Stiles before walking away, "you better talk to him or I will! She said before getting in Jackson's car.
Driving home he thought about what he would say to Derek when he got to the Hale house. He was going to go straight there but he turned around as soon as he was almost there because he decided he needed a shower first because he felt sweaty, which he rarely did if it wasn't from lacrosse practice or games, or various threats, wasn't involved. As he pulled into the driveway he peered around to see if his father's cruiser was there. It wasn't which made him sigh in content as he prepared to get out of the car. Maybe his pups were right—ha his pups, that made him smile as he walked—maybe he should talk this out with Derek instead of trying to pretend there wasn't anything wrong.
He went to his room as soon as he closed and locked the door. He threw his bag into his desk chair and sighed flinging his body onto his bed.
"Stiles". Derek spoke softly as he walked from his chair.
Stiles had brought a chair specifically for Derek, it had resembled a kings chair with its lushes ruby red cushioning, and lion clawed shaped legs.
"Derek? Stiles hopped up his heart beating fast.
Derek didn't answer he just smiled but it wasn't long lasting because it was followed by a frown. He stood in front of Stiles who sat at the edge of the bed staring up at him.
"Der–
"Stiles I'm sorry". Derek said looking down at his mate, "I'm sorry I really am I just I can't let you in without feeling like I'll somehow get you killed". Derek breathed as he inched closer.
"Derek it's okay". Stiles told him, "and your not going to get me killed why would you say that? Stiles asked taking the alphas hand gently in he's.
"Look at what happened to my family". Derek muttered as he looked away from Stiles, "look what I did to them".
Stiles felt his heart pound hearing Derek's sad, brittle voice. He'd felt his emotions it was like he was spiritually connected to Derek because he felt the pain, guilt, and anger swell up inside him.
"Look at me". Stiles said as he rose to gently turn Derek's head to face him with his free hand, "it's not your fault Derek. Do you hear me? Stiles asked feeling as though Derek looked back but was entirely consumed in his thoughts.
Derek nodded as a tear trickled down his cheek.
"Your not at fault for what happened Derek, that psychotic ass bitch Kate is, she tricked you". Stiles spoke as he held Derek's head in his hands, "you couldn't have possibly known what it was she had planned could you? No" Stiles said wiping the tears from Derek's eyes.
"It is I... I couldn't save them Stiles". Derek spoke his voice brittle you could hear the crying beginning to rise, "I couldn't do anything to save them but watch them burn screaming for help, screaming out in pain". He said nearly in a growl as he started crying into Stiles shoulder.
"I know hun I know". Stiles said as he held Derek's big body into he's, stroking his back gently kissing him on the head, Derek hiccuped tears still flowing, "I know you couldn't save them Derek but it isn't your fault you didn't inflict that pain on them and I know you never would I know how much you loved your family I do Derek I really do and you shouldn't hold stuff like this in". He said rubbing his back, "you can talk to me I'm here for you no matter what you say or do, okay? He added wanting his mate to know he could talk to him.
"I know". Derek sniffled
Stiles guided them to the bed, Derek toed his shoes off and laid on Stiles nuzzling into his neck, silently crying. Stiles rubbed his back as his breathing became steady again.
They laid like that in silence for half an hour, there hearts at the same pace and breathing in sync with one another's as they laid. Stiles wanted to ask Derek was he holding anything else in but figured he should just let him tell him when he's ready.
"Stiles". Derek said as he leaned up to see Stiles russet brown eyes.
"Hmm? Stiles asked smiling.
"I... well uh the night I came here bloody". He started, Stiles sat watching as Derek tugged on his shirt, "I sort of got into a little fight with Peter". He said looking everywhere but into Stiles eyes, he didn't want to see the disappointment in his eyes as Stiles didn't want Derek fighting or killing his only living family.
"I know about that". Stiles told him.
"How? From who? He asked as he sat up
"Well Peter he uh–
"Peter told you? Derek cut him off.
"Yes and some other things but I'm not bringing it up". Stiles said remembering he'd stay clueless, well as clueless as he could with just the Paige thing since he told him about Peter telling him.
"No what else did he tell you? Derek queried.
"Nothing". Stiles lied horribly.
"I can hear your heart Stiles". Derek reminded him.
Stiles sighed and looked away.
Derek looked down into his lap, "he told you didn't he? He asked, "he told you about Paige?
Stiles didn't say anything he just looked at Derek and shook his head.
Derek sighed, "what did he tell you? He asked.
"No... nothing he just told me her name then said I had to ask you about her". Stiles told him.
"Why didn't you? Derek asked
"Because I uhh". He cleared his throat as he turned his head to the wall, "I thought that if you didn't want to tell me I wouldn't bring it up it wasn't my place to get you to talk about anything you don't want to". Stiles told him.
Derek frowned at that, "but it is your place Stiles your my mate, you shouldn't have to keep it to yourself because I'm not talking to you, you can ask me I will tell you". Derek said as he took Stiles hand in he's.
"Derek". Stiles muttered looking at his mate.
"I'll tell you". He answered knowing his mate was about to ask him about Paige.
It was nighttime and in a warehouse young Derek and Paige, who was beautiful, stood kissing each other.
Paige pulled back breaking their kiss first.
"What? Derek asked feeling as though he'd done something wrong.
"Wh...Why do you like me? She asked Derek frowned "What's that supposed to mean? He asked
"Why do you like me? Paige shrugged her hands still in Derek's.
"Why do you think I like you? He countered with a smile.
Paige smiled then bit down on her lip, hesitatingly she said, "Honestly, I think, at first, you liked me because I didn't like you".
"So what? now you're worried that now that I know you like me that I'm gonna stop liking you? Derek asked his eyes looked on Paige's.
"Not worried". She said, "Just wondering when that's all". She added with a smile.
"What if I never stop liking you? Derek smiled.
Paige was about to answer but Derek tensed up, looking around them. He looked through the warehouse, he didn't see anything but he did hear something, someone coming.
"What? Paige asked watching Derek look around.
"Did you hear something? He asked focusing his ears towards where he heard the sound.
"What's wrong? Paige asked worried.
"Something happened here". Derek told her as he looked around, holding her closer.
"What do you mean? She asked confused studying him.
"I caught a scent. It's blood". He answered pulling her even closer, "All right, now I definitely heard something". He said.
"Derek, I don't hear anything". She breathed trying to hear what he'd have possibly heard, but nothing it was nothing but dead silence.
"We have to go". He told her pulling them apart, "Come on. Let's go". He demanded as he took her and ran the other way out of the warehouse.
"What happened? Stiles asked breaking Derek's story, "the blood I mean what happened why was there blood? He added seeing Derek's confused expression.
"I don't know but it was something bad", Derek told him.
"Oh okay you can continue I'm sorry". Stiles said, Derek kissed his hand and continued.
That same night Peter had told Derek that tomorrow he'd be able to get Paige turned to a wolf, but he'd have to be there for her after she was bitten, Derek agreed reluctantly. It was night time and school was over, Paige roamed around the building, her long beautiful chestnut hair flowing as she walked. Footsteps sounded down the hall and Paige rounded to see who it was.
"Derek? She called as she walked towards the noise, "Derek, is that you? She asked.
No one was there, she sighed and turned around and saw a tall dark figure down the hall.
The dark figure growled as it walked into the light. He beamed his alpha red eyes, with his claws out as he stared towards her.
Paige gasped at the sight of red eyed man then turned and tried her best to get far away from him, but the alpha was to quick for her. He ran on his hands and feet and lunged for her grabbing her by the ankles and dragged her to him. She screamed and pleaded for him to let her go but he growled with a deadly grin and bit into her side. She winced in pain, her screeching setting Derek off. Derek growled at the brute alpha, he was way to scrawny up against this man, but he wasn't going to let anything happen to Paige. The alpha grabbed him by his shirt then plunged him to the ground and held his head to the floor making him watch as Paige held onto her side crawling up the stairs. Tears nearly escaping his eyes as he watched the girl he love wince in pain. The alpha grunted a laugh as he let Derek go and then he was gone. Derek rose and ran to Paige.
"It's going to be alright". He breathed as he knelt down to scoop her up, "it's going to be alright okay". He told her but it was more to convince himself then her as he knew she could either survive the bite and become a werewolf like him or she would die and the later seemed to be the direction the bite was going. He carried her all the way to a basement where a old tree with a Celtic symbol was carved on it.
Derek cradled Paige in his arms as she shuttered and winced in pain, he cried knowing it was nothing he could do. Smelling someone coming Derek peered up and saw a horrorstruck Peter who was watching from the stairs breathing hard.
"What's happening to her? Derek cried
Peter didn't answer instead he watched trying to catch his breath. Peter left after a while as Derek cried still as Paige winced.
"I'm sorry". He said as he sucked the pain from her, his veins as black as night.
"I knew". She said faintly.
"What do you mean? Derek asked frowning.
"Right after I told you my name, I think I knew". She began, "I've seen things in this town before, things no one really could explain. And then there's the way that you talk... how you say things, like how you'd catch a scent. And I know you can hear things, things that no one else can hear. I knew". She told him as she held on to him.
"And you still liked me? Derek asked as he tried to pull more of her pain into him.
"I loved you". She corrected with a stutter, "I'm gonna die... aren't I? She asked, and Derek nodded kissing her forehead, "Ow. I can't. I can't take it anymore". She cried as she gripped Derek's arms, "Derek, I can't. Derek...". She sobbed, "Please. Please". She begged and Derek shut his eyes tightly as tears fell from his eyes. Paige winced and Derek opened his eyes, they weren't his usual alluring green eyes instead they were magnificent golden yellow. His claws grew out and he hugged Paige tightly before he dug his claws in her spine, she winced and fell lifeless.
"Arghh", he roared loudly, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry". He cried as he held her lifeless body to he's, cradling back and forth.
"I'm sorry". Stiles said as Derek finished, "is that–
"Yes". Derek answered knowing what Stiles was talking about.
"But how come? Stiles asked confused.
"Because taking an innocent life takes something from you as well". He said softly, "it takes a bit of your soul, darkening it, overcasting the once luminous golden yellow eyes to inclement, steel blue eyes. Like mine". He said.
Stiles was lost for words, there wasn't nothing he was sure he could say to Derek so he flung into his arms and nuzzled against his neck.
"I promise I'll never let that happen to you Stiles". Derek promised as he kissed his forehead, "okay? Derek asked.
"Okay". Stiles answered.
They kissed then properly laid in the bed and cuddled together.
"I hope I didn't offended you". Derek began as Stiles laid in his arms.
"What do you mean? Stiles asked confused as he turned to stare into his mates eyes.
"With my story". He answered.
He felt that he'd hurt Stiles feelings for telling him how he loved Paige, he knew that he loved her but it was different for him and Stiles.
"It's okay". Stiles told him, "I understand that you loved her". He kissed him.
Derek kissed back and then they laid in each other's arms. Stiles fell asleep first he'd missed sleeping in Derek's warm arms even if he was gone for two days. Derek stared at his mate as he slept in his arms, "Mine. My mate forever". He whispered as he kissed Stiles forehead. It wasn't long for Derek to fall asleep after that.