Monday had come around and I was anxious. I sent Nicole a text in the morning asking when I could go over to see the kids. How was all this going to work? Can I take them somewhere? Then I had to wait.
Ruby had text me:
'When do you see the kids?'
I responded:
'I have no idea. I text Nicole an hour ago and nothing.'
Ruby:
'What about Jason? Did you text Jason?'
Me:
'I'll do that right now.'
I sighed, frustrated. I scrambled through my contact list trying to find Jason's number. I couldn't. I frowned. I switched over to the text message list and tapped on the 'new message' button. When a new screen popped up, I tapped on the blank box at top to punch in his name......what's his name, again?? Shit!! Who am I texting?! What was I doing??
I threw my hands on the the couch on either side of me. I wanted to cry again. What the hell is his name?!?! I forgot, completely, what I was doing. Son of a bitch!!
I dropped my head into the back of the couch and stared at the ceiling. I allowed my mind to go blank. I tried to breathe. I had to calm my thoughts and feelings before I could try to remember what I was doing. And then I remembered that Ruby Messer's me about something or other. Maybe it's in those texts. I pulled my heavy head up and looked at my phone again. I exited out of the windows that I had opened and searched for Ruby's name in my text message list. I scrolled down, then up, then realized she was the last one I text so she was at the top. I shook my head at myself.
I opened Ruby's text block and read it. Ahh. Right. Jason. Visits. Ok. I exited out of the message block and tapped on 'new message' again. I typed in Jason and tapped his name then moved on to the message itself:
'Hello. Do you know anything about us visiting the kids? When can we do that? Does it have to be at Deborah's? Can I take them for a bit?'
Ruby sent me another message:
'Ask for an emergency meeting!! We should sit down and figure this out! Then we can hash out ideas of what you guys are going to do to get them back!'
I exited out of Jason's text block and opened Ruby's:
'Emergency meeting? Ok. I just sent him a messege about visits. I'll do that now.'
I exited out of Ruby's text block and opened Jason's again:
'Can we set up an emergency meeting? I don't agree with any of this that's happened. The kids are going to have a hard time dealing with this.'
I exited and opened Ruby's text block:
'I asked to set up an emergency meeting. Told him I don't agree with this and that the kids will have a hard time dealing. Now we wait. AGAIN!! Fuck I hate this!!'
I exited out of the text block and the text message window. I put my phone on hibernate and slammed it on the couch next to me. I huffed. This is ridiculous.
Brad had walked in and said nothing. He sat down on the love seat and looked at the tv.
I looked at him. I wanted to blame him. I wanted to hate him. I want to lash out and beat the shit out of him. But for what? He didn't shove Hailey. He didn't hurt her. I didn't get to see her or her wrist. I didn't see any photos.
My phone rang. 'Private Number' popped on the screen. I thought it was mom.
"Hello?"
"Hi, Samantha?"
