forced// dolan twins

e l e v e n

heather

As the school bell rang I didn't know where to go. I don't want to see Ethan, and Grayson goes home with Ethan.

I'll walk

I started heading towards the side walk, and heard Grayson call my name. I honestly didn't want to think about my issues, I just wanted to go home. Someone tugged my wrist, it was Ethan.

I just can't deal with this right now.

"Do you want a ride?" He said, not making eye contact with me. I had this feeling he didn't want actually want to, he just knew it was the right thing to say, that bothered me more. "I want to walk home." I said and continued to walk, though he started walking too.

"I just want to talk Heather." He said, fixing his hair. I turned to him and took his arms and put them by his side. "I'm done with all of this okay? If you like Julia, tell her. We can go separate ways and-"

"I don't like her anymore." He said, intensely staring me in the eye. I gulped, admiring his looks that I've had admired every single day. "I can't like her so what's the point of having feelings for someone I can't have." He sighed.

I can relate.

"Ethan you can have her. We just have to te-"

"What?! Tell my dying dad that I am not getting married and I won't become a better person before he dies?" Ethan's face became pink and I knew he was on the brink of a panic attack.

"You don't have to get married to become a better person!" I snapped, and his breathing started to pick up. "That's not what they think anymore and honestly I don't even know what to-"

I kissed him.

It wasn't really me being in love, it was me being a friend. I didn't really think I just needed him to calm down and it worked. Except when our lips parted, he went in for more.

Not saying I denied it. Part of me has feelings for him because if I didn't I would push him away, but the majority of me knows it's not right. But then that majority of me thinks

I'm marrying him so I might as well like him.

His hands grabbed my ass as I grabbed his hair, our lips moved in motion and it was hot.

When we parted, we both looked at each other shocked. He laughed, "Ok that escalated quickly." I blushed at his comment.

I stuttered "Sorry I-I just wanted you to calm-"

"It's fine, I liked it." He smirked and I rolled my eyes. "Are you mad at me?" I said, changing the subject. He looked down for a second, "You actually hooked up with my brother?" He said, his eyes were glossy.

I hate this.

I hate this feeling of guilt, because I like two boys. But I'm never not going to like Grayson. Ethan doesn't deserve this he deserves to be with Jay. Jay doesn't deserve to see us together, no wonder she's been distant recently.

I wish this could all go back to normal.

But it's was never really normal, my life is not normal.

"I.. yes." I said, I'm not going to make excuses. I knew what I was doing and I'm going to be responsible for it.

Ethan started pacing, "You cried when I- with Kyra, why would you do this to my brother?! MY BROTHER. I can't ditch my brother and I have to see him and-"