* Lost Boys ~ Dan/Howell • Phil/Lester *

happenings

Dans eyes opened and he realised it was all but a dream
A really bad dream
He looked over at Phil who was once again sleeping peacefully in his bed. Dan rose from the leather chair and went to the kitchen. All the boys were dining in the hall eating and and chatting away their time. Dan sat down by Jacob who seemed a bit quiet.
"Guess you made it back alright "

Jacob would not make eye contact with Dan

"yup"

"where did you go?"

Suddenly Jacobs and Dan's eyes met. Jacob's soft green orbs held a look of sadness, confusion, and, most of all, terror. Dan's eyes displayed confusion and worry beneath his furrowed brows. Jacob's head whipped to look at Chris who was sat on the opposite end of the table. The two made eye contact that was serious and intense enough to melt the sun. The boy across from them subtly  and slowly shook his head left to right. Dan pretended to be enthralled by his breakfast to a point where Jacob and Chris wouldn't notice.

Chris? 

Did they do something?

what in Gods name could they have done?

Are they a thing?

What if they got in trouble?

OR worse

What if they got in trouble with the law

We would all be found out...

taken to juvy or put into foster homes or orphanages

Dans worry grew faster than weeds in July

He looked over and was startled by Jacobs gaze meeting his immediately. There was an alarming serious expression that masked his usually relaxed face. 

"Chris and I...we uh...went on a trip"

"oh? where?"

Dan saw the boy swallow the lump in his throat. Pressure built in the air around the two as Jacob opened his mouth to speak what would either be blatant truth or blatant lies. 

"Barn"

"what"

"We went to the barn to plan a party for Phil"

"why"

"we just though a party might get peoples spirits up... plus Phil is recovering soon and he is by far one of the worst cases we have seen"

Jacob had an blank stare, an empty smile, and water droplets forming in his eyes. He sat in this state for about a whole minute looking directly at Dan, who was severely creeped out but would never let on. The boy looked so...vacant. But not completely abandoned. He looked like an old house that had been left long ago but the spirits still haunted it. 

out of nowhere Jacob spoke again

"Everything is fine"

"okay...... well I better get going haha" Dan released an awkward laugh and backed out of the room smiling and sweating. 

what the fuck?

what just happened?

was he on drugs?

what kind of witchcraft and bullshit had gone on in Jacob's little vacation with Chris?

Whatever

probably best not to think about it

...

Shit I should go check on Phil

Dan sauntered through the house, feeling comfortable there. The place had grown on him, he couldn't lie. He liked the rough walls and the ripped drapes. He liked the big empty rooms there. He liked the big mural behind the house. He liked that sense of community. He especially liked being able to tell himself to "go home" . But one thing he couldn't decide: 

Is home a person or a place?

Maybe he was just happy wherever Phil was

but what would happen if Phil wasn't with him at some point?

A door slammed shut in his mind

no

I wont allow myself to even go there

it cant happen

for some reason he was filled with a sudden sense of scared

something felt bad

his pace became more swift as he made his way to Phil

he walked in the room where home was

but something was w r o n g 

no

oh no

no

no

He rushed to the bed with stone in his stomach and led in his head 

Phil was pale

his lips blue

his form looking frail again

panic and terror flooded everything about dan

"Phil?" he cautiously asked as though he could break the boys delicate form with nothing but his words

no response

this was fear in its strongest form

"Phil?" he said a bit louder borderline shouting

he put his hand on his companions cold cheek

he lifted the boys eyelid to find that his eye had rolled to the back of his head 

"PHIL" he yelled

he grabbed his shoulders and shook them a bit, but not too violently 

"PHIL" He was screaming at the top of his lungs as tears made little rivers town his cheeks

Everything went silent, save for a loud, high-pitched ringing

Other boys pulled Dan away as the doctor rushed to Phil, checking his vitals 

Dan screamed and tried to get closer to the boy, but other restrained him with all their might

he tossed his head

threw punches in every direction

clawed at everything around him

he felt the demons closing in while his walls were down 

"C-CAN-T LO-S-SE H-HIMM P-P-LEASSE" he managed to choke out over his convulsed sobs. 

The others dragged him to a operating table and injected something into his neck.

He felt his body relax 

he fell away from the world

and slipped into a sleep so peaceful that you would think Phil was there with him

but he wasn't

Dan was cold

alone

scared

grieving

running from his demons

without anyone to save him

hopeless bastard

what a familiar feeling