Painful➰Sidemen AU

0.6

The Kids Aren't Alright-Fall Out Boy
•Bailey's POV•
Blood dripped down my arms as I continued to wipe up the water from the previous incident. The room was silent apart from my quiet sniffles every now and again.
"I'm a fucking mess." I laughed quietly to myself as I threw the used kitchen roll in the bin.
I walked into my bedroom and got changed before cleaning up the cuts on my arm, it was too tempting when the sharpness was right in front of me, calling me. I went back to my computer and finished editing before uploading. I was a gamer. I didn't show my face, stuck on a fake happy voice. That was what I did to keep myself busy, to help me ignore these lonely walls.
I looked out onto the darkness of the city and decided that was best if I went to bed when my phone's loud buzzes distracted me. I looked down to see that it was Lindsay, I silently cursed when I remembered that I forgot to text her.
"Thank fuck you're okay Bail, you had me worried sick." Lindsay's voice came through the phone.
"Calm down Lin, things just came up." I unintentionally croaked.
"What happened?" She spoke quickly.
"Oh, nothing just stuff." I sighed walking into my living room.
"I'm coming over and bringing ice cream so you can talk it out, don't do anything dumb." This was why Lindsay was my best friend, she was like a mother to me, always wanted me to be okay.
"See you." I sniffled and hung up.
After fifteen minutes I heard the familiar jingle of keys at my door. When she got in the first thing she did was give my a hug, followed by her handing me the ice cream and letting Neto off his lead.
"Why are you crying, babe." She asked in a low calming voice when we sat down on the sofa together.
"I've been running away from my problems for so long and now they've piled up on me again." My voice was as clear as I could let it, my body was weak.
"Sometimes it's okay to run." She rested a hand on my shoulder calmingly.
I had told her everything before that night, from start to finish. From Mum to Ann and Jack, to the guys, to my dad and how every little fragment tied in together. How my life has been a jumble of mistakes, like trusting the Sidemen and falling in love with Ethan. I didn't use names though, or that they were famous online. Those secrets I'll hold onto forever because I still cared about their reputation.
We spent the night laughing and getting to know each other better; crying and eating food together.
Lindsay and I met a few months after everything happened, we became close very quickly and now it felt as though we were inseparable.