Painful➰Sidemen AU

1.7

We don't eat- James Vincent McMorrow
•Bailey's POV•
I sighed and threw my keys on the kitchen counter, thankful that another tiring day at work was finally over. I looked over my sitting room, glaring at the specific picture that I never had the heart to get rid of, the one of me with the seven guys at Thorp Park. I had came to accept I will always have an anger toward them seven males, along with their outside accomplices.
JJ cleared things up greatly, it angered me that they couldn't tell me the truth all those years ago. How they let the guilt and pain that i felt because there was obviously something so wrong with me that they switched on me just like that, all because they didn't think it was necessary to tell me. All because they thought I had just forgotten about all of the pain that they caused me.
I looked around the living room, looking for something to busy my racing mind, noticing the dead vase full of, what was once White and purple lilies that sat beside my keys. I sighed and grabbed the vase, shoving my keys in my pocket and walking out of my flat, locking the door behind me.
I got to the lifts and pushed the down button, having to go down to the food waste bin. The doors opened and I swiftly stepped in.
The door closed and I sighed, hating the feeling of my mind racing when I stopped for even a few minutes. I pulled out my phone and began to scroll through social medias before the door opened once again.
Three girls with suitcases walked into the hall lift, making it feel a lot more crowded. My chest tightened anxiously at the group as I caught the eyes of Freya, she offered me a small smile before I quickly looked away and tried to focus on my breathing.
"Hey your that girl from the party." I heard who I could only guess as Emily say.
"Um yes, I am, you're Emily, aren't you?" I asked, as I tried to soften my anxious eyes "And you're Josh's fiancé as well." I smiled, although I was trying to avoid them, they were still lovely and I could never blame them for what happened.
"Yeah and this is Gee." I looked over to the girl with long wavy dark brown hair and realised that they didn't know I knew that they were friends immediately.
"I think we've met." She smiled with her posh accent.
"Yeah thanks for that, by the way, goodness knows what could have happened." I smiled and looked to the metal floor, remember that night in the chip shop.
With that the doors opened and I walked out quite quickly, almost forgetting the vase of flowers in my hands.
"Nothing can just be fucking simple with me." I mumbled, bringing the vase over to the food waste bin.
"Bailey wait!" I heard Fraya call behind me.
"Yeah." I turned around with a small frown on my face.
"What's your Twitter, I miss talking to you." She smiled, holding my forearm slightly.