Falling For Her

"She was everything you wanted...and everything you lost. She was the most love you'll ever feel. She was the greatest beauty you'll ever see. If you ask me now should you get her back? I'd say no. You don't deserve someone who took your pain as hers. A woman who thought about you more than herself. A woman who let herself be broken by you so she could fix you. You don't deserve someone who, in a night, cried a million tears...and in the morning, loved you even more. Regrets are part of a life lesson: sucks to suck. You lost a good person."

Kenya was really starting to piss me off, she wasn't answering her phone nor the texts that I sent her. I was just trying to explain to her what really happened. When I went to her room, she was never there. I just don't know what to do anymore. Should I give up? Should I try harder? And it's not like she was making it any better. I don't even know is she's okay. Does she even want to talk to me? Does she want me to just give up in her? Has she given up on me?

I was starting to stress out mad hard. So my teammates was taking me out. I guess they got tired of watching me lay around looking depressed and shit. I was tired my damn self. I hopped up and got ready. I stepped out of the shower feeling a little better. My body felt more relaxed, I was just going to give Kenya her space. But in the morning, ima go and talk to her. I went into my room and threw on my black Levi straight legs, my Gamma 11's and my black and blue Jordan shirt. I sprayed my cologne, brushed my hair, took one last glance in the mirror before grabbing my keys and heading downstairs to meet up with my team. We waited about 20 minutes on my friend Cole, and then we were off.

                     {1/2 Hour Later}

We pulled up to this club, and shit was jumping. I mean you could hear the music blasting, people was lined up all the way around the building. Literally. Of course we got to skip the line and walk right in the club. We was at club Pharaoh. There was mad females in here. I honestly wanted to let lose. I didn't have a girl to go home to. So why stress? No I can't do that. I want Kenya so bad right now, it hurts. I miss my baby something terrible. I know she miss me, the girl down the hall from her said that we need to hurry up and get this shit over with. I guess she tired of seeing Kenya depressed and stuff.

"Hey.", Some girl said knocking me out my thoughts.

"Wassup.", I replied.

"Nothing, you look like you got a lot on us mind.", She said starring at me.

"Yeah, I do.", I said rubbing my head.

"Do you wanna talk about it?", She questioned.

"No, but thanks.", I answered.

Next thing I know, I'm taking shot after shot. I don't know why. I need Kenya. I felt like crying. The girl that I met at the bar was looking kind of right. Every thought that I had about Kenya at the moment erased. I didn't know what was going on. Next thing I know, everything went black.

                    {The Next Morning}

I woke up to the girl that I met at the bar putting her clothes on. Did I sleep with her?

"Goodmorning sleepy head.", She said smiling.

"Did we fuck?", I asked her pissed off.

"Yeah we did.", She answered chuckling.

"I don't find shit funny!", I yelled at her.

"Umm right. Anyway call her.", She replied before walking out my room and shutting the door.

Damn I really fucked up. How am I going to tell Kenya. She really not gonna take me back. Then I started thinking, I didn't Fuck that girl. There was no way. Yeah I was fucked up, but one my roommates loved Kenya so much that they would Fuck me up if I did that, and two I would definitely feel like I just got done fucking. I know that I didn't mess with that girl. When I looked up to see who was coming in my room. There was Kenya starring at me. Shit, was the only thing I could think. I know that she saw that girl.

We started talking, and something told me to put some pants on. I got up threw some shorts on, and Kenya said something, the next I know she's running out the door. Damn she was fast, but I snatched her up, right before she could even open the front door. I kissed her neck. All I wanted to do was explain myself to her. But she just kept running.

"I'm not letting you run out of my life again. Kenya baby I fucking need you. I can't concentrate when I know that I don't have you. That girl that was in my face day just wanted to meet US. She said our relationship was an inspiration to all these other couples out there.  I don't want nobody but YOU. You all I have left. Kenya I need you. Last night, I don't even remember that girl. She's nothing to me. I only want you ma. Only you.",I  said looking into my eyes.

"Avian I'm sorry. I should've talked to instead of running away. I should've answered my phone and texted you back. I was just so hurt. I honestly thought that you was trynna get with her. Then the bitch that just left, She knew what she was doing, she looked sad as hell when she saw my face. I knew that you fucked her, I just didn't want to believe it. Avian, I miss you so much, it hurts. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep. I can't even focus in school. I'm just so confused right now Avian.", She replied starting to cry.

We started talking, and at first I felt like she wasn't going to take me back, but then I said some funny shit and she started laughing. That's when I knew that I got my baby back. Damn I missed my baby so fucking much.

"Stop pooh.", I said kissing her lips. This time she kissed me back, she just couldn't resist. I got my baby back y'all and I'm not losing this girl ever again. She mean too much to me man. I grabbed her hand and pulled her towards my room. I just wanted to hold and talk to her.

"Aye bro, you see that chick that was talking to you at the club last night. I think that bitch stole my chain.", He asked walking down the stairs.

"Yeah bro, she was in my room putting her clothes on like we fucked, and she did have ya chain on now that I think about.", I answered kissing Kenya neck.

"She wild as hell, but she was asking about you all last night. Ima Fuck her up. Hey Kenya , good to see y'all back together. You had my boy over here depressed and shit.", He said before dapping  me up, giving Kenya a hug and walking into the kitchen.

"You see I told you I didn't Fuck her.", I said biting her neck and pulling her up the stairs.

"I know baby, I'm sorry.", She replied pulling me into my room and pushing me on the bed.

"We got a lot of making up to do.", I said pulling her down so that she was straddling me.

"Oh yeah?“, She questioned.

"Yeah.", I answered.