Falling For Her

Understand Me

"...."

"Come on Avian,get your head in the game. We're down to 30 seconds left on the clock and we really need you." I heard my coach say knocking me out of my thoughts.

My life has changed so much within the past 3 weeks. I can't eat, I can't sleep. I can't think, I can't breathe. I'm confused and it's crazy cause I don't even know why I'm confused. I thought that trying to take things slow with Kenya would actually move things along. Make things way better. But it actually pushed us back. After the break up and her getting drunk and us having that huge talk, I feel like everything just took a turn for the worst. I hate that things like this are happening, but what can you really do?

"Avian, do you hear me?" My coach questioned.

"Yeah, I'm listening. I got this coach. I answered getting up from my seat and walking towards my team. I have to get my shit together and fast. I'm trying to make it out here. Playing pro ball has been my dream since I picked a basketball up.

"Alright team, let's go out here and win!" My coach yelled before pushing us towards the court.

*Later That Night*

"Aye yo, ya phone is ringing. Wassup with you." Jay said smacking my arm.

I looked down at my screen to see Kenya's name popping up onto the screen. Tell me that I'm wrong, but I didn't feel like talking to her. I had just won my game, and the fact that she said that she was going to be there and then not show up really pissed me off. This was the second game that she missed. And she always has some bullshit ass excuse as to why she couldn't come. I didn't feel like talking to her, let alone thinking about her right now.

"Yo." I said answering the phone.

"That's how you answer the phone now?" She replied chuckling.

"What's going on?" I asked her. I don't know if she could tell, maybe she just didn't care but I wasn't in the mood right now to even be laughing.

"Look, I'm sorry that I didn't come to your game, I got caught up with this tutoring session and..."

"Nah it's good, there's always a new excuse." I said cutting her off.

"That's not an excuse, but ok. Are y'all still having that party tonight or what?" She asked sounding like she had the attitude. See how do you go from telling somebody that you gonna fix only caring about yourself and still act the same. She don't even try and pretend that she cares.

"Nah, we canceled it. But I'm gonna holla at you later. I answered lying to her. Yeah we having that party tonight and I don't want to hear her voice, let alone see her face.

"Okay, well do you want to go out and celebrate your win?"

"Nah I'm good. I'm just gonna stay in and be by myself for the night." I answered.

"Mhm ok, well I love you." She said.

"Ok." I replied before hanging up the phone. Yeah call me mean or fucked yo but at this point in time I really don't care anymore. I feel like I tried enough and at this point there's nothing else
that I can do. I wash my hands with this relationship once and for all.

"I'm gonna get ready." I told Jay getting up and walking towards the stairs. I know that I'm wrong for lying to her but I really don't care. I know jut over this whole thing. And by thing I mean this relationship. I'm tired of stressing over it and thinking about it altogether.
   I jumped into the shower and did my hygiene. I got out and threw on some black ripped straight legs, with a white and black Biggie shirt and my gold and black foams.