Falling For Her

Spoke To Soon

"She just want one nigga to prove her wrong about all these fuck boys."

Kenya and I actually had a pretty good day. She took me to Ganetron. It's like this big ass arcade but for older people. Kind of like a Dave and Busters but better. Anyway my boys had asked me if I wanted to go out with them. And I had said yeah. I just didn't know how to tell Kenya. She might have a whole fit. But you really can't blame her. She so used to us being around each other that when we not around each other it feels crazy. Like another part of you is missing or something. She's my other half.

She ended up taking it pretty well, or so I thought. Okay let me tell y'all what happened.

  Ard so I'm sitting in the booth at the club. You know me and my boys just chilling or whatever. And it's mad dry in here so I decided to check up on my Instagram page or whatever. Boom, I went on there and I saw a post that Kenya had put up. She was all like "Since my boyfriend doesn't like my company" Or something like that and it pissed me off. I really took that to the heart. I don't care if people think I'm being extra. Man whatever. Ok, back to the story. So I had called her and I did flip out on her. So she was just like babe, I was playing. But I didn't believe that. If you was playing, why you didn't put Lol, or I'm just kidding. You know? So later on that night I was just like fuck it and I went over to her room and I tried to talk to her. She gonna tell me that the whole situation was irrelevant. Tf. Okay, so I just got up and bounced. She was trying to get me to stay and she just kept apologizing. As bad as I wanted to turn around, I didn't. I wanted her to see how I felt when she did shit like this to me. Call me childish I know. And now that I look back on it, I know that I should've just hugged her and talked it out with her.

Shit if you ask me, we both need help.

The Next Day

"Aye yo, Avian wake the fuck up!" Jay yelled shaking me. When I opened my eyes I saw him and his brother Derrick standing over top of me. My heart immediately dropped. The first thing that I could think of was that these niggas that was after my "mom" had came back. But then I remembered that Derrick and his crew took care of all that. Well at least I think so.

"Wassup?" I asked them. A nigga was tired. Up all night and shit stressing.

"Man, Kenya is in the hospital."Jay answered. I don't think I ever jumped upt that quick. I started throwing on anything. Right about now, I didn't even care. I ran to the bathroom and brushed my teeth,I wiped my face and grabbed my brush. I slid on my all black Nike slides and grabbed my house keys.

The three of us got into Jay's car and we made our way to the hospital. I just kept sending up quick prayers. I can't lose her too. Right about now. Nah man scratch that, from now on, I'm not leaving Kenya at all. Shit we can argue ima still be right there. Fuck all that running and walking out on each other. That shit is dead and petty. I don't have the time. We both grown, we can handle this. We not in high school nomore. This that real shit. That real life.

"A, we here."Derrick said knocking me out of my thoughts.

I didn't even let the car stop, I just jumped right out. Fuck all that extra.

"I'm here to see Kenya Smith." I told the lady at the front desk.

"We're only letting family see her right now." She said popping her gum.

"I'm her fiance." I said clenching my jaw.

"Oh, well then she's in room 263. But ima needs for you to fill these papers out first." She replied trying to hand me a clipboard.

"Yeah whatever." I said smacking the clipboard out her hand and making my way towards the elevator.

I finally got to the room. I didn't know if I should go in. I was so scared. I don't know what the hell happened to her. Was she okay? Was she going to make it? I reached for the door and opened it.

"I called Jay and Derrick and told them that you were in the hospital. And to tell Avian. I know you told me not to but I had to baby." I heard a female say.

"He's not even gonna come." Kenya replied.

"Why wouldn't I?" I asked her.

I honestly don't even know what happened after that. It's like everything went left. I wanted to tell Kenya how I felt, but something totally different happened. I ended up telling her that I wanted to be just friends. Why the hell did I do that? Maybe it was the best for us. Maybe I just made the biggest mistake of ny life. I honestly don't know.

  Next thing I know,Kenya telling me to leave. To be honest, I thought that she was going to tell me that she wanted to be just friends too, but I guess not. I ended up catching a cab home that night. I didn't want to be bothered with. When I got home, I locked ny bedroom door and turned off my lights. I turned my phone off and just crawled under the covers. I don't know what I just did or where it's going to take me.