What?
He loves me?
I've practically been dead for two years.
What am I supposed to say to that? What can I say?
"Ethan..." I trailed off as I broke eye contact with him.
"I knew it. I knew it would ruin it." He said as he started to get up.
"No Ethan." I said as I grabbed his hand.
"You didn't ruin anything." I added.
He just started at me blankly, the look of pain plastered on his face.
"Don't leave me, please." I pleaded. He just nodded as he sat back down on the bed, his hand clasped around mine.
"Why did you do it?" I asked hurt.
"Do what?" He asked oblivious. It's like he doesn't even remember.
"Two days after I said I would give you some space, Ethan." I said making him remember. He just looked down.
"Ethan I need an answer." I said sadly as I let go of his hand.
"I was scared." His voice was low, I could see him holding back the tears.
"Scared?" I questioned, scared of what?
"Yes Blaire, I was Scared. I was scared okay? I couldn't be in love with you. I couldn't. I was so scared to love you, I was too scared to love you. So I said I wouldn't. I tried, I really did. I didn't want to be in love with you, I didn't chose to be. All I wanted was to have fun, I just wanted to be normal. But I caught feelings and I just couldn't tell if you did too so I had to do it. But it felt so wrong, all of it. Blaire I never realised just how in love with you I really was and then you had your accident and it hit me, it hit me hard. I couldn't live with myself." Tears slowly filled in both of our eyes.
"I failed Grayson. Our channel went to shit, I just couldn't act like I was fine all the time when I really wasn't. Grayson's gone off to college now But I couldn't. I couldn't leave incase one day you would wake up, and you did. Everyday For the past two years I've been here, praying that you would come back to me. I love you so fucking much Blaire Cadwell, it's unreal. I love you so fucking much."
I crashed my lips on his, they moved in a perfect sync. My hands were wrapped around his neck and his were gripping me tight, not daring to let me go.
Ethan Dolan Loves me.
And I love him.
