I woke up wrapped in Ethan's arms. I looked down at our bodies that were pressed against each other, the many sheets covering our naked selves.
A wide smile crept onto my face as my mind went over the events of last night. The way he kissed me, the way he touched me, he made me feel whole again.
Ethan's head was resting on my stomach so I ran my fingers through his hair to wake him up. After a minute or two his eyes slowly opened. The second his eyes met with mine a small smile landed on his lips.
I jumped onto his lap as I sprawled out over his body.
"Thank you Blaire, for last night." Ethan said as he ran his fingers through my hair.
"What part?" I asked with a giggle making Ethan chuckle.
"All of it." He whispered in my ear before he flipped us over and stared into my eyes.
He then started a staring contest with me. He started tickling my sides trying to make me blink and in the end I gave in. He then relaxed his body on mine, squishing me.
"E-Ethan! I can't b-breath!" I yelled through my laughter but he didn't budge. I ended up kneeing him in his balls... I mean, ya gotta do what ya gotta do, I could have died...
He immediately rolled off me as he groaned in pain, his eyes squeezing shut as he squirmed around on his back. I laid next to him as I laughed at him, feeling a bit guilty.
"Blaire I wanted children in the future!" He yelled as he opened his eyes and tackled me against the car door. I erupted in a fit of laughter as he groaned out in pain again from moving too quick.
"Come on, baby E, let's get ya dressed." I said as I squeezed his cheeks.
"I am no baby, I thought you learnt that last night." He said huskily into my ear as he placed soft kisses on my neck.
"Alright alright, come on." I said as I tried getting up, Ethan just pulled me back.
"Ethan." I said as I tried again.
"I just wanna cuddle." He said as he started kissing my neck again. I just laughed at him, he was being so cute.
"No. Come on, I'm fucking hungry." I said as I threw him his shirt. He groaned before pulling his shirt over his muscular body. After finally making Ethan get dressed, we packed up and started heading back home.
"You want me to drop you home?" I asked as we passed a huge sign indicating we were back in town.
"I'm uh... I'm not sure." He said, his voice breaking slightly.
"Hey what's wrong?" I asked as we stopped at a stoplight and I turned my head to look at him. He was nervously fumbling with the zipper of the coat he was wearing whilst an uneasy frown was displayed on his face.
"It's just... I don't know, I just don't want to go back there right now. I don't want to see his stuff." He said in a whisper. I just nodded and quickly tried to change the subject by turning up the radio.
"What do ya feel like eating?" I asked cheerfully as I gripped the steering wheel with my hands tightly.
"I'm not that hungry." He said as he relaxed in his seat and looked out the window.
"Okay, well I want a grilled cheese right now." I said smiling at the thought of a grilled cheese.
"Okay, maybe I am hungry." I chuckled at him as I pulled into a local diner.
...
We had ordered our breakfast and were now sat at a booth in the corner.
"Hey Blaire?" Ethan said as he locked his eyes with mine.
"Hmm." I hummed in response.
"You know when... Um, you know when your... Actually never mind." He said then looked away.
"When my parents died?" I questioned.
"Um yeah." He said sheepishly.
"What about it?" I asked softly.
"Well, how did you, like, deal with it?" He asked.
"Trust me, you don't want to do what I did, I went insane. I didn't have anyone though so I guess to deal with this you just need to be with the people you love and care for and those people are your family. Which is why you should go home today, your mom is probably worried sick." I said honestly.
"I guess you're right." He said quietly.
"And Grayson, he probably needs you more than ever right now. Just think that these past days you've had me, who's Grayson had?" I questioned as our food arrived.
"But do you think you could come with me?" He asked hopefully.
"No, Ethan. This is something that you and your family are going through and me being there will just... I just can't Ethan, I'm sorry." He nodded his head slowly.
"Cameron's coming home today." He said with a hint of a smile. I just smiled back at him. I didn't know what to feel right now, I didn't know what to say anymore. I don't know Ethan, I met him last week for god sake, what if I say something wrong and he just breaks?
I feel like he's already gotten too attached to me, like he wants me with him wherever he goes. I just don't know if I can do that, I'm not that type of person anymore to have someone like him in my life, I've been hurt too many times and I will ruin it just like I always do.
But I like him. He's different than other guys, he actually cares. But I guess I'll just have to tell myself that guys that care just aren't my type.
