Ethan's face popped up on the screen. I clicked play on the video.
"Hey Blaire!
The way I imagined myself doing this is completely different from what is happening right now.
I can honestly say that I didn't expect this. I mean, I never expected to be in love with someone like you. A Savage.
Yeah I said it, you're a straight up savage Blaire haha.
I guess I just never saw myself with someone like you, someone so... outgoing and confident.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that... you're just not my type.
Haha
No but for real, I never realised just how amazing you were until you weren't mine.
When my dad died, you were the only person that made me feel so... alive. I can't even explain it, it's like I just lost something that was so important to me, yet you made me see something so beautiful that it disguised the pain, it made me see the good things and times I had with him.
You completely changed my perspective on life.
All the shit you went through and the way you just... I don't know, the way you just be... you.
I can honestly say that the days I spent with you were the best days of my life, Blaire.
I can never tell you how... what's the word, Ummmm... see I just can't even explain it.
Thankful.
That's the only word that comes to mind.
I'm so thankful that I had the privilege of knowing you Blaire, even if to you it was only a couple of days.
Coz for me? I have known you for two and a half years, and every single day I've fallen more in love with you.
I've just got back from the hospital, you just woke up. I got to hold you for the first time in two years. I got to hold you for the last time. I got to kiss your lips once more, I got to hear your voice, get lost in your beautiful eyes. And for that, I thank you.
You're the only reason I didn't give up, why I kept fighting for so long. The chance of being able to be with you one last time kept me going, Blaire.
And now that you know how I really feel I can relax. I can stop fighting because you know that I love you with my everything.
I regret it, I regret everything I did that made you hate me, I regret not letting myself love you, being scared to love you.
The truth is I lost my chance, the time I had to be with you, I wasted it. The precious time that until after your accident I never realised just how precious it was.
Now I don't have any time left, my time is over and after tonight, I don't have to keep fighting it.
I am complete, I am happy.
And so this is for you, Blaire. I couldn't go without saying a proper goodbye could I?
Blaire, Blaire, Blaire.
I can honestly say that you are the love of my life.
Thank you for giving me one last moment with you.
Now I can rest.
I want you to know that I'm happy now, that I will be thinking of you until the moment I am gone.
Goodbye, Blaire Cadwell."
