Or at least I thought I did, I thought I loved him.
The Ethan that I'm looking at is a completely different person than the one I used to know, the one that I had fallen for.
This one was broken.
I may not love his broken self, but maybe if I can just fix him then I can have my Ethan back.
"Ethan I.." I couldn't say it, I couldn't just scatter his broken pieces everywhere like that.
I never did finish my sentence, I guess I didn't need to. My silence must have spoke for itself.
Ethan slowly stood up, a small smile displayed on his lips. His fingers still laced with mine, he reached to his full height.
"Blaire, I can honestly say that you are the love of my life and you always will be." He started.
"Ethan please don't do this." I said, the guilt inside of me eating away.
"It's okay, Blaire. I know that you don't feel the same, but now I feel so complete. Now that I have been able to say this to you, to see your beautiful eyes shine once more, to see that small smile upon your lips again. To see the colour displayed on your face, feel the warmth of your skin one last time-"
"Ethan what are you talking about?" I cut him off.
"Now that I have been able to tell you how I really feel, how I've felt everyday for the past two years that I've been sat here, staring at your lifeless body just praying that you would wake up in time for me to do this-"
"Ethan your scaring me." I cut him off again.
"Don't be scared, Blaire. You're the only reason I'm here right now, the only thing that kept me alive whilst this pain has been threatening me all this time-"
"Ethan please."
"And you did it, you woke up for me. You made my life complete Blaire. You made all this pain worth it, just to hear your voice one last time."
"Ethan what's going on?"
"And I thank you, for everything that you did for me, for giving me this reason to live with myself. I love you Blaire Cadwell. Forever and always."
"Ethan."
He released his tight grip on my hand as he leant down and kissed the top of my head.
"You should get some rest beautiful." He said as he pulled the covers over my body.
"Ethan are you okay?" I asked worried, the smile on his face seemed so real and genuine, but I just couldn't help that feel like something was completely wrong.
"After today, I've never felt so good about everything." He said, his voice mellow and soft.
"O-Okay. I'll see you tomorrow, yeah?" I said as I stared up at him.
"Goodnight, Blaire." He said as he kissed my head one last time.
Then he left. He walked out of that door, the small smile never leaving his lips.
