"Are you going to talk or should I?" I asked. Dinah and I had been staring at each other for a while now. The tension was strong between us and I decided to break the ice. "Well?" I asked. "You look different" Dinah grinned. "Seriously?" Dinah frowned. "I'm sorry, I just- you look- sorry" Dinah ran her fingers through her hair. I chuckled. "Yes, I cut my hair" I said. "It looks good" Dinah said. "Sorry about this morning, it was very rude" Dinah said. "Don't worry about it, I rather not talk about that" I said. Dinah moved closer to me or I moved closer to her. All I realized was that we were closer than before. "How is Heather?" I asked. "No, don't even ask, you are not ready to talk, you just said that" Dinah furrowed her eyebrows in distress. "A question doesn't kill a person" I whispered. "A breakup does" We were so close I could feel her breath against my skin. "Why, are y-you talking to me now?" I stuttered. "I think about you and how things ended everyday, it breaks me, it broke me" Dinah sighed. "Then why did you do it?" I cried. "I'm sorry Y/N, but I just- " "You left me and said you didn't love me that's what happened, you chose her" I said. "I didn't choose her Y/N/N" Dinah yelled. "Don't call me that!" I yelled back. "Y/N" Dinah sighed. "Stop, just please stop talking, I can't" I lost all of my control and started to sob. "Please don't cry Y/N" Dinah said. She wrapped her arms around me but I pushed her away. "You hurt me Dinah, you hurt me and you hurt me this morning, you hurt me everyday" I sobbed. "Y/N I'm sorry, I am so sorry, I didn't mean to" Dinah pleaded. I started to hyperventilate and my tears blurred my vision. I could no longer resist Dinah's hold causing me to fall into her arms. She wrapped her arms around me tightly and combed her fingers through my hair. "Y/N I- " "I can't Dinah, I can't listen to you say anything else, I HATE YOU!" I sobbed. I clenched my chest and it felt like I was spinning. I could only hear muffled voices and then nothing. I blacked out.
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DINAH POV
"...I HATE YOU!" Y/N yelled. I don't know why but I felt as if my heart sank. Y/N and I broke up, her reaction didn't bother me before. Well not as much as it should have due to the parties and her. Y/N clenched her chest and I started to call her name. "Y/N!!" I yelled. "Y/N" I shook her. I looked at her face and she was out cold. "Jesus Y/N" I mumbled. I checked her pulse and felt rapid beats. I wiped the tears from her cheek. "Oh god Y/N, what the hell" I mumbled. "WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER?!?!" Lauren yelled. "Jesus, she's becoming pale" Lauren said. "What happened?" Lauren asked. "We were talking about things" I mumbled. "Lauren" Kehlani said. "What the hell happened to Y/N?" Kehlani's eyes widened. "She passed out come on we need to get her to the hotel room" Lauren grunted. I attempted to carry Y/N but Lauren snatched her away. She shook her head at me and Kehlani moved out of the way for Lauren to carry Y/N out of the car. They took each side of Y/N and carried her into the hotel with Camila and Normani running up to them. I stayed in the car and watched them carry her. She was in my arms and she just passed out. "DJ" I looked up to see Zendaya in front of me. "What Z?" I mumbled. "What happened with you and Y/N, she's passed out on the bed" Zendaya said. "I don't know we were talking and then our breakup was brought up, that conversation was inevitable" I said. "Small steps Dinah" Zendaya said. "Y/N is different now, and not in a good way" Zendaya said. "Well neither am I, Zendaya you know how bad I feel about how things ended" I said. "Dinah, stop being so conceited, she's not the one who ruined your relationship, it was you" Zendaya said. "Yeah" I mumbled. I clenched my jaw and looked away. "Maybe its best if you two just stay away from each other, not every relationship last forever, she'll get over it and you already did" Zendaya said. "With Heather" Zendaya scoffed. I rolled my eyes. "Whatever" I said. "Can I just go?" I groaned. "Fine" Zendaya said. I bumped shoulders with her on my way out of the car. I took out a vape pen from my jacket pocket. Heather had a stash and I shared in the wealth. I can't say I'm proud of the aftermath of Y/N and I's breakup. I went back to who I was before, maybe worse. I leaned against the side of the building and held the pen to my mouth inhaling the smoke and then letting it out. Y/N and I really aren't meant to be. I'm a mess and she's damaged. I don't deserve her, not anymore. My phone buzzed in my pocket. I exhaled the smoke and took out my phone. "Speaking of the devil" I chuckled. I decided against answering the phone and the buzzing stopped. I held the pen to my mouth again and began to relax as I exhaled a cloud of smoke. I rested my head against the wall and felt my phone buzzing again. This time I answered. "What?" I groaned. "Wow, what a polite way to say Hello" I already felt the anger building up inside of me. "What do you want?" I asked. "What happened? Why are you so angry?" I sighed. "I'm not in the mood right now okay" I said. "What did that chick do this time, attempt to jump off a cliff?" She snickered. "What the hell is your problem? That is not funny, obviously she's hurting, and you are wasting my time" I said. "Baby, she's not in your life anymore don't tell me you still care" She growled. "HEATHER! You are the frickin reason she is the way she is right now and same for me, like it or not, Y/N and I have the same friend group" I snapped back. "Well okay, someone's grumpy, I'm sorry I didn't know she wanted you so badly" She cooed. "Go to Hell" I yelled. "Dinah! What the hell? I make jokes like this all the time, you left her! Maybe you should come back home, you have friends here too whom you never hang out with over break" She said. "No thanks, I've done enough crazy shenanigans with you and our friends" I said. "Oh Dinah, I'm all you got, and you are mine" She growled. I hung up the phone and slid down the wall. "What the hell did I do!" I yelled. I bang my fist against the wall repeatedly only seeing and feeling my anger. I smashed my pen against the wall causing it to break and my knuckles to bleed. However, I didn't stop bashing my fist. I was pulled back from the wall but my fist were still flying. "Dinah! Dinah! Stop, stop it, you're bleeding!" Normani yelled. She held me tighter and held my arms. "Dinah, calm down" Normani said. I stopped squirming but I was still very angry. "We have to get your hands cleaned up, come on" Normani pulled me towards the hotel door. "Why did you mess up your hands like this, are you trying to get benched for the season?" Normani searched for an answer from me. My face was blank. "I can take care of my hands, the season doesn't matter anyway, I'm the best" I said calmly. Normani unlocked the door to our hotel room. We were sharing the room along with Kehlani and Zendaya. There was a door in the middle of the room that opened up to Lauren, Y/N, Camila and Ally's room. Zendaya and Kehlani quickly ran up to me. "Dinah, what the hell happened to your hand?!?!" Kehlani yelled. "I fell" I said. "What do you mean!! I had to hold you back from breaking all the bones in your hand, you were bashing a brick wall with your hand!!" Normani yelled. "Well, I'm good now so I'm just going to use the bathroom" I sighed. Zendaya, Kehlani, and Normani followed me in. I ran water over my hands and watched the blood from my hands go down the drain. "Crap" I mumbled. My hand is definitely sprained. "You broke your hand, didn't you?" Zendaya asked. "Sprained it" Kehlani shook her head. "How are you going to completely heal before you go back?" Kehlani stated. "This is nothing, I've had glass shards go through my hand and still played well" I said. "When?" Zendaya asked. All the girls faces were masked with pure confusion. "Some night, I rather not bring it up" I said. I applied bengay cream to my hand to soothe my damaged bones. I knew my hand was going to throb in the morning. I wrapped gauze over my hand and took an ice pack from my bag. The girls whispered behind me and stood there like they didn't know me. Well the truth is they don't, I'm worse than the last time I went off the wagon. I'm on a new level, High School me is nothing compared to the college girl I am now. If I were to compare shenanigans in High School to my shenanigans now, you would think I was just a harmless jokster. I put the ice pack on my hand and wrapped the gauze around it. "Are you all going to keep on staring or actually say something?" I asked. "Jeez Dinah, what's been going on with you?" Normani asked. "College" I simply answered. "No, you need to tell us what is really going on!" Kehlani yelled. "We are worried about you!" Zendaya said. "You are practically throwing your life away" Zendaya said. "You don't think we saw the stuff in your bag?" Kehlani said. "You went through my stuff?" I growled. "No we just saw you go through your bag" Kehlani walked over to my bag and took out my pill bottles and a box of vape pens. I shifted under her gaze. "Why Dinah?" Normani sighed. "I bet you it's because of Heather!" Zendaya yelled. "That girl is going to get you kicked off the basketball team and ruin your chance at joining the WNBA" Zendaya said. "Or worse, you are going to get killed" Kehlani said. "Is that what you want Dinah?" Normani asked. My head started spinning and once again I felt my anger rising that I could no longer control. "Shut up! You don't understand" I spat. "Then help us understand Dinah" Normani said with the same tone. I sat on the bed and held my head in my hands. I felt the weight of the bed go down and a hand placed on my back. "We just want to help you Dinah, that's what friends are for" Kehlani said. "I can't tell you" I mumbled. "Why not?" Zendaya asked. She kneeled down on the floor and took my hands away from my face. "We'll be here for you Dinah" Zendaya insisted. She looked into my eyes and I met her glossy eyes gaze. "Don't cry for me Z" I said. "I've done some bad things" I said. "I-I don't know how to say them" I felt a cold shiver go down my spine. "Dinah, it's okay, you can tell us" Kehlani assured me. "Heather is bad like you all said, but it's complicated" I said. "What do you mean it's complicated?" Zendaya asked. "She's intoxicating, she seems nice in an extraordinarily bad way, she reminds me of me before Y/N or what I would've been" I said. "She drags me to parties, wanted to me to hang out with her friends, who made me feel horribly good, they are something else though" I said. "They're the crowd everyone wants to be seen with and no one wants to mess with" I sighed. "Some of them deal, Heather does sometimes" I said. "Dinah! Why would you get mixed up with that crowd?" Normani asked. "I don't know, I was sad" I mumbled. "That's not just sadness Dinah, you and Y/N aren't just sad" Zendaya said. "You got yourself into this mess Dinah! You should've stayed away from Heather when you had the chance" Normani said. "How you'll come back from the damage you've done is a question none of us know how to answer" Kehlani said. "Yeah" I mumbled. "Dinah, you need to stop with the bad habits and get away from Heather" Kehlani said. "It won't be that easy" I said. "Doesn't Heather love you or something?" Normani asked. "Yeah in her own twisted way" Zendaya said. "She won't throw you under the bus D" Kehlani said. "She's clingy, she'll find a way" I said. "Damn Dinah" Normani said. "We should go to sleep" Zendaya said. "We're leaving in the morning remember" Zendaya said. "Yeah, I'm driving tomorrow" Kehlani said. Normani patted my back and got up from where she sat. I took my sleep apparel and went to the bathroom. My hand shook as I splashed water over my face. I threw my head back and groaned. "Where did it go wrong" I mumbled to myself. The cool beige floor tile soothed the pain in my feet from my past injury. My body is basically built for pain by now. I struggled to pull my shirt off causing me to groan in frustration. The bottom of my shirt had blood spots scattered around it. I sighed and began to slowly pull my shirt off. I threw it onto the bathroom floor and proceeded to put on my new shirt. I shook so that the shirt would fall down my body. I forced my arms through the armhole and groaned in pain. "Need help?" I looked up at the person in front of me. "No, thanks I'm fine" I replied. "I can hear your groans" She said. "Please go back to sleep Y/N" I said. "No, let me help you, it'll be quick" Y/N said. "When did you wake up? Are you okay?" I asked. "I'm okay Dinah, it's not the first time" Y/N mumbled. She took my sweatpants from the floor and handed them to me. "Thanks" I said. "What happened to your hand?" She asked. "Oh I slipped in the shower" I said. "Hm, is that how all this blood got on your shirt?" She picked up my blood stained shirt and threw it over the sink. "You can't leave your shirt like this" Y/N said. I looked at her strangely. "Are you trying to be my friend?" I asked. I pulled off my jeans halfway, then stopped to regain the strength in my hand. Y/N walked over to me and looked down. "You didn't slip in the shower" Y/N frowned. I shrugged and began to pull down the rest of my jeans. "Sit down Dinah" Y/N said. I sat down and laid my back againt the tub. "Why are you here?" I asked. She slowly pulled my jeans from my feet and looked up at me. "We should be able to be friends Dinah, we were best friends before" Y/N said. "Yeah" I said. I took my sweatpants and began to pull them up my legs. "Don't pull them so roughly, your hand is busted" Y/N warned. I took deep breaths and slowly pulled my sweatpants over my waist. "There you go" Y/N smiled. My heart ached again, I didn't think I would see thay smile ever again. "I look crippled" I sighed. Y/N laughed causing me to laugh as well. "If this is a dream, than I do not want to wake up" I smiled. Y/N frowned. I looked at her in confusion. What did I do this time? "Goodnight Dinah" Y/N gave me a small smile. She left and it felt like never came in. I knocked my head against the tub. "I can't do anything right" I mumbled. I squatted than jumped up. Luckily I know how to get up when I can't use my hands. I stretched my arms and turned the bathroom light off. I headed towards my bed which I was sharing with Normani. Kehlani and Zendaya were also sharing. I rolled onto the bed and looked at the ceiling, hoping that sleep will overcome me.
Heeyyy y'all wassup! Soo how is the sequel so far? And I bet you are wondering, Who is Heather? What did she do? How did (Y/N) and Dinah break up? What did Dinah do? Why Dinah has so much pain? Well the answers will be revealed throughout the sequel :)
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On Purpose(Sequel to Player Dinah/You)
Hayran Kurgu"You're scared, I'm nervous but I guess that we did it on purpose"
