On Purpose(Sequel to Player Dinah/You)

Nineteen

"Kiss my neck", "Ooooh", "Ugh don't stop", "Did you miss me?", she asked. " I miss you, I missed you so much", I moaned. "You like that?", she asked. "Mhmmm", I hummed. She stopped her motions. "Ugh, no, no keep going", I said. "For all these years, I wanted you, to touch you, to smell you, to feel you", she said. "I want you too", I said. She kissed me roughly. Her hand slowly went up my thigh and the other was touching my cheek. Her tongue entered my mouth and we kissed hungrily. Her hand then moved from my thigh to my folds. One finger went in and I gasped, then two, then three, then four. I moaned in ecstasy. She started pumping her fingers rapidly while leaving wet kisses on my neck. I moaned and bit her collarbone. "I think I'm gonna- ".  Then she stopped again leaving me frustrated and lustful. "Baby, nooo, I was just there" I whined. "Beg for me hun", she whispered seductively. "Come on stop playing around, I need you, please", I said. "What's my name?", she asked as she rubbed my folds. "Dinah" I moaned in frustration. "I can't hear you", she said as she slowly thrusted her fingers inside me. "Dinah!" I said louder. She started pumping faster. "Do you want me to finish?", she asked. "Yes, yes please", I groaned. "Well I can't", Dinah said. "Why not?", I whined. She rested her head on my forehead then sighed. "Because I'm dead", Dinah stopped and hovered over me then licked her fingers. I laidback and looked at her quizzically. She looked at me then stroked my hair. "You were always so gorgeous, weren't you" she said. I reached out to touch her face and then she smiled and her body faded away. Soon my eyes opened and I was met with the view of a white wall and the sound of a beeping monitor. I looked over to Dinah who was still inactive. I leaned over and touched her hand. "I miss you so much", I said. "I hope you're trying to get yourself out of this" I sighed. I gazed over her body, her forehead was wrapped, her left cheek was black and blue, her lips were grey and cut leaving a bloody bruise at the end of her lower lip, around her nose were purple and black marks, her hands had scratches on them leaving behind a long red mark, her toes have bruised knuckles. Her skin overall has lost its radiance and color, now she just looks lifeless and cold. "I feel like I'm looking at a corpse", I said. I looked down at Dinah's fingers it was twitching. All of a sudden Dinah started shaking rapidly. "Woah! What the hell?!!", I yelled. "Dinah, Dinah, what's going on?", I said. A few doctors and nurses came rushing in. "Doctor, she has a high fever", one nurse said. "110 degrees", the other nurse said. "Oh my-   " "Ms. Y/L/N we're going to have to ask you to leave", the nurse said. "Uh, I- okay", I said baffled. As I left nurses ran in to put cooling pads on Dinah's body. I stayed in the hallway stressing out over the situation. Camila came rushing down to Dinah's room. "What happened?", she asked. "She has a high fever", I said. "Is she going to be okay?", Camila asked. "I hope so", I said. "I heard her mom say that they should disconnect her from life support", Camila sighed. "What?!", I gasped. "But she can pull through, she'll be okay", I said. "Malika can't afford to pay for those medical bills Y/N", Camila said. "Dinah looks so lifeless, she's already dead", Camila said. "How can you say that Mila?!!", I yelled. "Y/N/N you just have to accept it, she's gone, the only thing keeping her alive is that machine", Camila said. "She can't be dead", I said. "She's been through a lot of pain Y/N, the least we can do is finally let her rest", Camila said. I sat down on a chair and held my head in my hands. Camila sat next to me and a silence fell upon us for a while. "Next year Dinah was going to be in the draft, she really wanted to go to the LA sparks to carry her state just like Candace Parker", Camila laughed. "After a few years in the sparks and a championship of course, she wanted to go to New York Liberty", Camila said. "We talked about her going to the Espys", Camila sighed. "When are they going to do it?", I asked. "Sunday", Camila frowned. "Okay", I sighed. "I'm so sorry", Camila said. "Me too", I said. Camila hugged me and I hugged her back. I let go of her then laid back in the chair. "Come on Y/N let's get out of here", Camila said. "Yeah", I sighed. We began to walk away from Dinah's room and I could not bring myself to look. Camila and I walked onto the elevator with solemn faces. "Where are we going?", I asked. "To eat with the girls", Camila said. "Okay", I said. "How's Marcus?", Camila asked. "He's great, and he's gotten so big, he has facial hair now", I said. "Isn't he twelve?", Camila asked. "Yeah", I said. "Wow puberty slammed into him", Camila said. "I know, do you want to see a picture?", I asked. "Yes!", Camila said. I took out my phone and scrolled through my camera roll for a picture of Marcus. I found one of him in a Juventus soccer jersey which was white with vertical black stripes on the front and black shorts with a black nike sneaker that had a white sole. His right foot was on a soccer ball and he had a smirk on his face. He had a rectangular shaped face with a noticeable jawline and a faint goatee. He had olive skin with a golden undertone and a fade hairstyle with thick brown curls that had blonde streaks. "Wow Marcus was born to break hearts", Camila said. "How tall is he?", Camila asked. "He's 5'5", I said. "I'm still taller than him", I smiled. "He's as tall as me", Camila said. "Yeah", I said. "Does he have a girlfriend?", Camila asked. "Mila you missed your chance hun", I said. "No, I'm not asking for me", Camila whined. I laughed. "Relax Mila, and no he doesn't, my parents prohibit him from dating until he's sixteen", I said. "Oh poor kid", Camila laughed. We walked towards Lauren's car. "Hey Y/N", the girls said. "Hi girls", I smiled. "We're so sorry about Dinah, but we hope you'll join us for a picnic sweetie", Ally said. "I'll come along", I said. Normani smiled at me and moved over for me to sit. "Mukbang!", Camila cheered. "Not the time Mila", Zendaya said. "I'm sorry I just wanted to lighten the mood", Camila sighed. "Well you can't, Dinah's dead", Kehlani growled. "Lani", Ally warned. "No, it is true, Dinah is dead, and we all have to accept it and move on, even if she did wake up there's no way that she would be able to fulfill her dreams, she rather be dead", Kehlani said. "Don't say that Kehlani, be considerate", Normani said. "Yeah why do you have to be a bitch about this", Lauren said. "Shut up Lauren, you're probably glad she's dead", Kehlani said. "Are you kidding me, I'll crash this car right now", Lauren yelled. "Do it bitch! I dare you", Kehlani yelled. "HEY! HEY! Nooo do NOT DO THAT", Camila exclaimed. Soon all the girls started bickering. I stayed quiet and looked out the window but I could not take the yelling anymore. "SHUT UP!", I yelled. "What the hell is wrong with all of you?", I said. "Dinah wouldn't want us to bicker like this, if she's dead, if she is ACTUALLY DEAD then we need to stick together, this is not the time for us to be insulting each other!", I yelled. "You know what drop me off at the hotel, I just want to be alone", I said. "Come on Y/N, we didn't mean to upset you", Zendaya said. "You have to come Y/N/N", Camila said. "Yeah, please", Ally said. "Fine", I groaned. "But for Christ's sake shut the hell up about Dinah!", I said. Kehlani huffed and laid back in her seat. We drove in silence for the rest of the ride and let me tell you that was a silence I definitely needed. We stopped at a park and began to get out of the car. We started walking together to a spot under a tree nearby a lake. Normani took a blanket from her bag and laid it on the floor. We sat down and looked at each other in acceptance that our friend has most likely passed away. Normani cleared her throat. "I got gumbo, po-boys, bananas foster, and king cakes", Normani said. "Sounds great Mani", Ally said. We began to take po-boys from her bag. "What's in this?", Camila asked. "Uhm some of them have roast beef covered in gravy, or fried shrimp, and fixin's like lettuce, mayo, or barbecue", Normani said. "This is really good", Zendaya said. "It's a New Orleans classic", Normani smiled after taking a bite. We looked at the lake and sat in silence as we listened to nature. "I love you guys", I said. The girls looked over at me. "I love you too girl", Zendaya said. "Love ya", Camila gulped. "You know I love you", Lauren said. "Yeah we know too", Kehlani joked. Lauren rolled her eyes and I shook my head. "But uh I love you too Y/N/N", Kehlani said. "I love you all", Ally said. "I love you both", Normani said to Ally and I. We huddled together and sat in each other's embrace. "Where do you believe Dinah's spirit went?", Zendaya asked. "I think she's in heaven with the Holy Father, smiling down on us", Ally said. "She's probably moving on to her next life now", Lauren said. "Or she's just a piece of organic matter slowly deteriorating to be connected with nature and made into something else", Kehlani said. We looked at Kehlani awkwardly. "Do you think they're going to cremate her body?", Camila asked. "I don't know", Ally said. "I think they're going to bury her", I said. "We're going to have to come back to Cali for Dinah's funeral", Kehlani said. "I just can't believe she's dead", my voice broke. "I know Y/N, I know", Ally said. "She was my everything and I didn't even get to say goodbye", I sobbed. "It's okay Y/N, wherever Dinah went, she will always be with you, with us", Normani cried. "She was my best friend, trust me I am also feeling unbearable pain", Camila croaked. "She was such a beautiful person, she was going to do so many things with her life", Zendaya sobbed. "I miss her, I miss her so much already", I sobbed. "Me too", Kehlani sniffled. "But she will always be here with us in our hearts", Ally said. "She's with us right now, I just know it", Lauren said.

Meanwhile...in Dinah's mind

"Where are we?", Y/N asked. "You don't know this place?", I questioned. "No", Y/N said. "Wait this is the clubhouse!", I said. "Ah, this is where you fell off the wagon", Y/N said. "Well you don't have to say it like that", I said. "But it's true, this is where you broke my heart, this is where you drank too much and raced cars, this is where you fooled around with that girl and her friends, Veronica", Y/N said. "Yes it is, but is there a point to you making me feel awful about myself?", I asked. "If you don't see it know you might not make it out of here", Y/N said. "Dinah, you know why we've been going through all these moments", Y/N said. "No I don't", I said. "Yes you do, think Dinah", Y/N said. "You're making me realize my mistakes so that I become a better person?", I questioned. "Nothing in life should be regretful except for venial crimes, our failures are the steps we climb, in order to overcome this Dinah you need to see your mistakes as steps you climbed", Y/N said. "To where?", I asked. "To enlightenment", Y/N said. "You sound like Buddha", I said. Y/N laughed. "Well I didn't know how else to phrase it", Y/N said. "So what? Will be a monk at the end of this?", I joked. "No, you'll turn your life around from a jerk and a alcoholic to a good and clean person", Y/N said. "Uhm ouch", I said. "Hey is that me?", I pointed. "Yes it appears it is", Y/N said. "And that's Y/N", I said. "Yeah", Y/N said. "This is where we broke up, this is that night when you were drinking and jealous", Y/N said. "Do you remember this night?", she asked. "It's kind of a blur, she looks so sad", I said. "You broke my heart", Y/N said. "Do you see the consequences of your recklessness?", Y/N asked. "Yeah", I sighed. "But our failures are the steps we climb, that is now who I am", I said. Y/N turned to me and smiled. "Looks like you might make it out of here after all", Y/N said.

Hi. My arms hurt now :) xx