the one

What's wrong?

I don't know why I ran away. He must think i'm an idiot now. I ran into the bathroom and I heard someone knock on the door. "Just a second" I called out. I stared at the mirror talking to myself "come on Ariana he's just a guy, you can do this. Just get through the party." I walk out of the bathroom and run into Jason.

Jason- i'm sorry

Ariana- no i'm sorry I should have been watching where I was walking.

Jason- what were you running from? Are you okay?

Ariana- it's nothing. I'm fine.

Jason- okay. I'll see you around.

Ariana- okay see ya.

I walked away from Jason and noticed that Ricky was staring at me and he looked mad. What was he mad for? I walk the other way trying to forget about him. I see Ryann and decide to go talk to her.

Ariana- I didn't know Ricky would be here.

Ryann- well he is my brother. What's wrong? You look a little pale.

Ariana- well it's probably from not breathing while staring at your brother. I know we aren't together anymore but he is still sexy.

Ryann- why don't you talk to him?

Ariana- I might later...or I could just avoid him.

Ryann- ok Ari you have fun with that.

I don't know why but I find myself looking for him and quickly stop myself because I don't even know what I would say to him. I'm so torn between talking to him and avoiding him. I just decide to go look for him and talk to him. When I step into the living room I wished I would have tried to avoid him.

I see him dancing really close to the girl who has loved Ricky since they were in high school Mabelynn. Ricky says that they were just friends growing up but I think that there was something more.

I just kept staring at them dancing and it was just making me more upset. I don't know why it hurt so much to watch them, it's not like me and Ricky are a thing. I was the one who broke up with him I shouldn't feel this way.

He looked up for a second and saw me. His eyes got big and he looked guilty. He looked at me then back at Maybelynn. He said something to her and looked at me one last time and walked away with his head down. I was frozen to that spot I couldn't move and I felt like I would be sick. I watched as Maybelynn looked confused for a second then she went back to dancing with someone else.

What am I doing to myself? I knew I shouldn't have come to this party.