the one

I can't leave again

Ricky's p.o.v

It had been a week since I went on my date with Brook. She has called me five times a day everyday since. I haven't answered any of her calls. I didn't enjoy being with her. I only wanted to go out with her to forget about Ari. That plan didn't work because she was at the same place we went. I had wondered if she even noticed me. She was there with Frankie and they were acting strange. They are usually loud and laughing but they were quiet and on their phones the whole time.

Brook just kept talking and laughing. I would just smile and nod every now and then so she would think I was listening but I never took my eyes off of Ariana the whole time. I remember before I took her to the hospital she had whispered she loved me. I wonder if she meant it. Of course she doesn't, she broke up with you remember. She broke your heart. I hate that stupid voice in my head. It was right though.

Ariana took pictures with fans and I could tell she was tired of doing it. When she took the last picture she said something to Frankie and they got up and started to walk out. She turned around and looked at me. I started to get up and go talk to her but she just put her hand up to wave and walked out. The love of my life just walked out that door and I let her. I didn't want to be there and pretend to listen to Brook anymore I just wanted to go home. She was in the middle of rambling when I stopped her. "Okay listen, you seem like a nice girl and you are very beautiful but I don't think we can do this again. I still love someone else and I don't think I'll stop loving her. I'm sorry but I have to go." After I said that I walked out just leaving her sit there. I'm so glad we drove separately.

I'm so glad that day was over with but even after I told her all that she keeps calling me. It has been a week, I don't know why she's still obsessed. I guess I really can't say anything about her though because I'm still obsessed with Ari. I get a text and roll my eyes thinking that it's Brook but it's Brian.

Brian- hey. What did you do to Ariana? 

What's he talking about?  I didn't do anything.

Ricky- what do you mean? I didn't do anything

Brian- well she said she saw you and now she has locked herself in her room. She hasn't come out in a week. Everybody has been here to try and get her to come out but she won't. She only let me in once and ate a little broccoli and celery then she pushed me back out and nobody has seen her. She's been crying and that was the only time she ate.

My heart instantly broke into pieces. I hate that I could have done this to her. I never want to hurt her. Well she hurt you so maybe she deserves it. I hate that stupid voice.

Ricky- I was on a date when she saw me. Now I feel terrible.

Brian- sorry. Maybe you could talk to her.

Ricky- and how would I do that? She probably doesn't want to talk to me.

Brian- can you just try? Please?

Ricky- okay. I'll be over at her house in 20 minutes

I'm now sitting in the driveway and I'm scared to go in. I shouldn't have come, too late now. I walk up to the door and let myself in. Brian is sitting on the couch and waves to me. I go over to him and give him a hug. "Okay I better do it now before I chicken out." I tell Brian as he sits back down on the couch. "Good luck!" He calls to me as I start going up the steps. I get to her door and take a deep breath. I knock on the door and wait.

Ariana- go away.

Ricky- Ari, it's Ricky. Can you please let me in.

I hear her walk to the door and unlock it. She soon opens the door and she has tear stains under her eyes and her nose is red. She still looks beautiful. She walks back to her bed and sits down. I walk over to her bed and sit at the end. She is picking at her fingernails and I figured I would go ahead and talk.

Ricky- "Ariana why are you doing this?" I say with concern in my voice.

She looks up at me and she looks so broken.

Ariana- doing what?

Ricky- locking yourself in your room, not talking to your friends, and not eating

Ariana- I don't know. I just didn't like seeing you with someone else. It hurt.

Ricky- really, how do you think I felt? I saw you with someone else for almost a year.

Ariana- I know. I'm sorry.

Ricky- you were already moving on with him before you even broke up with me. How could you do that? It's like you never even cared about me and now that you see me with someone else the whole world is ending!

I was starting to raise my voice and I could tell that what I was saying hurt her but it's the truth.

Ariana- I'm sorry. I loved you so much bu-

Ricky- you sure didn't show you did. I tried, I really did! I ignored when you wanted to hang out with your friends so much and I ignored when you wanted to be in the studio! I know you think that I was just being an asshole because of that but I wanted you to be happy and you were with your friends so I let you go out with them all the time. That day you came and told me that you were breaking up with me I had plans to take you out to dinner and then we could come home and watch movies while cuddling like we used to do and you broke my heart! I trusted you to be with him!

I was now standing up and yelling because I was so mad. I never got to tell her all of this when she broke up with me so now I'm yelling at her when I should be here to comfort her.

Ariana- how are you going to blame all this on me?! I would ask you to do things but you never wanted to. When I would go out with my friends I asked you to come with me but you wouldn't go! I moved on to Malcolm because he cared about what I had to say. He cared for me. I just wanted a little care and love and you didn't give it to me! You gave up on me, you let me go. You said you would never give up but you did. Why did you let me go?

She now had tears pouring down her face and I felt so bad. She was right, I did give up. I let her go. I should have stayed and fought for her but I didn't.

Ricky- I...I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry that I didn't fight for you. I'm sorry that I let you go. I'm sorry I gave up. I'm sorry.

Ariana- Ricky I don't want you to be sorry. I want you to be here for me and do all those things now.

Ricky- you still want me around?

Ariana- of course I do. I still love you

Ricky- I...I need a minute. I'll be right back.

I turned around and walked out the door. I practically ran down the stairs and out the front door before Brian had a chance to say anything. I got in my car but I just sat there. What am I doing? I can't leave her again, I won't.
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A/N
The next chapter will be Ricky's p.o.v. again