I Am Yours [ManXBoy] BOOK 2

Chapter Thirty-One: Rant

Riri's POV:

Ano bang nangyayari sa akin?. Hindi pa ba sapat yung pagiging bakla ko at bakit humantong pa sa kalagayang ito?.  The doctor told me something was inside my system and it's sort of developing. Sinigawan ko siya nang nalaman ko na I was capable of developing a baby. What on earth was this?. Is this a prank from you Lord?

Ayokong magka baby!. Ayokong mabuntis  at ayoko nito sa tanang buhay ko. Kailangan tong mawala at kailangan tong maalis sa katawan ko. Abnormal ako at alam ko iyon dahil pinamumukha ng mundong ito sa harapan ko. At idagdag pa tong lecheng developing organs sa katawan ko? Fuck! Just fuck this fucking madness. Hindi pwedi to at gagawin ko lahat para maalis ito.

The door squeaked at nakita ko sina Ethan at Jessica na pumasok. Nagpahid ako ng luha at hindi sila tinignan. I am fucking annoyed and irritated sa nalaman ko. Para bang ibang-iba ako sa mga tao sa mundo na bigla na lang susulput tong putang inang balita. Ibahin ako, may mga bakla na gustong gusto nito. Ayoko nito.

" hey". Ethan said.

" uhm.. I think I should leave. You two need to talk". Sabat ni Jessica sabay alis.

Lumapit siya sa akin pero hindi ko pa rin siya ininda.

" babe. Please, look at me". I faced him.

" Ethan. Ayoko nito". Namumuo na ang mga luha sa mga mata ko.

" why?". He brushed my hair with his hand.

" dahil hindi ito para sa akin. I have to get rid of this.".

" pero it's part of your system now.".

" I have to search for best surgeons or doctors na expertise nila ang mga ganito".

" doctor told me it's even a rare case".

" please babe. Kahit bakla ako, hindi ko ito pinangarap. Hindi ito ang gusto ko sa  buhay. I want to live normally. Burden lang ito sa akin." biglang pumatak ang mga luha ko sa aking mga mata.

The doctor prescribed me certain drug that could numb the worst pain na mararamdaman ko. He also told na sobra pa sa severe pain ang mararamdaman ko 'pag hindi ko ito ininom. Kaya I always monitored myself to take it.

" are you feeling great? May nararamdaman ka bang sakit?"

" wala pa naman sa pagka ngayon. I took this drug he prescribed."

" oh okay. I will be here for you okay? Don't worry that much.".

" do you like this thing that's happening to me?". Tanong ko sa kanya

" uhm.. Partly,  coz I do really want to have kids. Pero kung ayaw mo, there's nothing I could do about it then."

Hindi ako umimik at tinignan lang siya.

Maligaya siya. Pero hindi ako masaya. Paano ba 'to.

I closed my eyes at pinilit na matulog.
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" Tests were done, uhm... I guess you're feeling great. You will experience menstruations, it will flushed to your anal and..  the hospital will keep this confidential so you don't have to worry. Anyways, just take care of yourself, you're very delicate. Proper hygiene is important, and you have to consult  me if any weird things happen okay. This is just a shocking revelation and if this will be publicize, you will surely flooded with these scientists rants or whosoever. Please... Protection okay if you are not ready." She smiled at me and signed the papers for me to get out of this hospital.

" this is seriously weird and unnatural" Alexander said.

Pumunta siya dito nang malaman niya ang kalagayan ko.
Hindi ako nagsalita dahil na rin sa nangyayari sa akin. Parang ayokong gumalaw, ayokong makita ang sarili ko sa salamin.

" are you okay?". Tanong ni Ethan sa akin.

Hindi ko siya sinagot. Someone came in at ipinaupo ako sa wheelchair palabas ng establishment.

Ethan guided me in the car and fastened my seatbelt. Nasa sasakyan nakasakay si Jessica ni Alexander. Louiss went first kasi may lalakarin daw siya.

" do you want to eat something?"

" no".

"uhm... Are you thirsty?"

" no"

Nang nasense niya ang mood ko, hindi  na niya ako tinanong at nagpatuloy sa pagmamaneho.

Nang nakarating kami sa bahay, bigla akong lumabas at nagmamadaling pumasok ng bahay.

Tumungo ako sa kwarto at kumuha ng tuwalya at naglakad patungong swimming  pool. Nangangamoy na ako dahil hindi ako pinaligo.  I dive at the pool at sumisid patungung ilalim.  The pool has a depth of 8 feet. I 've learned swimming way back summer.  Nag enrol ako ng swimming class at heto ako nagpakaserina.

I was startled  when I saw someone dived also. Ethan swim to me and we faced at the bottom.  Almost out of air,  I swam up pero hinila niya ako and suddenly kissed me.  Not just only kissed me but he's giving me air.  We goes up hanggang nasa tuktuk na kami ng tubig. 

" the reason why you are not in the mood coz you stinks like shit". Pabiro niyang sabi.

"  uhhh.  Yep.  Ha. Ha. ". Tumawa ako at nag freestyle paalis sa kanya.  Nang marating ko ang gilid ng pool,  umahon ako at umupo sa semento.  I saw his body swim like a pro approaching me. He grab my thigh at umahon din.  Dinikit niya ang kanyang katawan at pinalupot ang left arm niya sa bewang ko at sumandal sa aking balikat.

" I want a baby ". Bigla niyang sabi.

" Ethan... "

" but hindi naman kita pinipressure. Kung handa ka na and atleast to consider it,  I'll be so damn happy. ". He kissed me and pushed me back to the pool.  Sinapak ko siya dahil nabigla ako.

Do I have to do this or  just let this slip by?.  Am I ready? "

I don't know.  But one thing for sure na dapat kong bantayan is yung menstruation  ko.

Ewwwwwwwwwww. 

Tumulong ako sa pagluluto.  Since gustong gusto naming kumain ng roasted chicken,  ako na ang nagbuluntaryo nito.  Kumuha ako ng whole undressed chicken at hiniwa ng konti sa gitna para kunin ang laman loob at pinaglalaagyan ng mga spices and herbs.  I spread it with honey at tinahi ang gitna gamit ang strips of bacon na matataas.  I prefer to use Turbo Broiler at sinet at nilagay muna ang manok sa loob.  Jessica was busy making potato salad.

When everything  is set and ready for eating,  umupo kami at kumain. 

They both praise the cooked chicken dahil daw masarap. Of course nasiyahan ako dahil nasarapan sila.

" I'm excited to both of you.  As married couples.  Ethan,  you should check dates now. "

" mom told me she will be the one to schedule the day for it".

Pagkatapos naming kumain ,tumungo ako sa sala at umupo.

Lumapit si Ethan at kinuha ang kamay ko at hinalikan.

" Dito ba tayo magpapakasal? "

" Yes.  Alam mo naman diba we are not allowed in the Philippines to get married ".

" namiss ko lang talaga ang Pilipinas,  ang tirahan ko,  ang lahat doon".

"Roman invited  us to his house"

" bakit daw? "

" Anniversary  wedding ng kanyang parents".

" ayoko.  Natatakot ako sa kanya Ethan "

" bakit?.  May ginawa ba siya sa iyo? "

" wala naman,  he's just weird. "

" oh. Okay.  "

" By the way, mom's coming here tomorrow "

" okay"

" she will surely bugs you to it"

" alam na ba niya? ".

" yes.  She has ears and eyes everywhere "

" should I hide? "

Tinawanan niya lang ako at biglang may housemaid na lumapit sa amin telling us na someone will pick us up.