Love Me Back [Completed]

Love Me Back

Patuloy lang ako sa pag-iyak habang nakatayo sa gitna ng malawak na study room.

My mother is still standing few meters away from me while tears are starting to build up at the side of her eyes.

She was looking at me with unexplainable sadness, disappointment and emotions I couldn't name anymore.

"Aliah, hindi ko na nagugustuhan ang mga pinaggagagawa mo sa buhay mo! Your bodyguards told me everything! Palagi mo silang tinatakasan, ni hindi ka na pumapasok sa mga klase mo! You're starting to be difficult to handle!"

"Steven..." my mother tried to interfere but my father's eyes stayed at me.

Nahihirapan na rin akong huminga dahil sa pag-iyak, at sa kabila ng nanlalabong mga mata ay nakita ko si mommy na hinawakan ang braso ni daddy para pakalmahin ito.

"I don't know what's happening to you Aliah, simula ng makilala mo ang lalaking iyon ay natuto ka ng sumuway sa mga bilin namin!"

I closed my eyes as I felt the disappointment in my father's words.
Pero hindi kasi nila naiintindihan.

Hindi nila ako maiintindihan.

"Dad, what's happening here?" Saad ng isang boses na alam kong galing kay kuya.

"Itong kapatid mo, natututo nang sumuway sa amin ng mommy mo." Nagtitimping sagot ni daddy at ramdam kong nakatingin sa akin si kuya pero nanatiling nakayuko ang aking ulo.

Kitang-kita ko din ang pagtulo ng mga luha ko sa makinis na kahoy na sahig.

"Steven calm down please. Aliah, baby, tignan mo si mommy. Please, let's talk about it." Saad ni mommy sabay hawak sa magkabila kong pisngi na nagawa kong itaboy.

"No mom. You wouldn't understand me. Hindi nyo alam kung gaano kasakit ang nararamdaman ko." I can taste bitterness in my mouth and I saw how hurt she was with what I did.

"Anak, he's not worth your tears--"
Mom said as she tried to approach me again but I stepped back.

"No mom! For me, he is! Hindi nyo po kasi alam yung pakiramdam ng mareject multiple times. You and dad had a perfect relationship. Ni hindi nyo kinailangan na magmakaawa para mapansin." I said as I heard my voice breaking.

"You never got dumped for a million times because daddy was there to catch you. Ilang beses akong napaisip, kung may mali ba sa akin? Kung hindi ba ako maganda? Kung may hindi pa ba ako nagagawa?"

I can't see them anymore because of my tears but I continued talking. Kailangan ko kasing ilabas ang mga bagay na kinikimkim ko na ng ilang buwan.

"I fell damn hard mom. I might be perfect in everybody's eyes, I may have everything that I want, but why can't I have the guy that I love?"

"Why.....why can't he choose me instead?" I said.

"That's it? Kaya ka ba nagrerebelde Aliah? Do you think you'll have him by ditching your classes? By ruining yourself? You're only eighteen for pete's sake!" Tiim-bagang na saad ng aking ama na ikinapikit ng aking mga mata.

He's mad and I don't have any care right now.

Pagod na pagod na ako.

I'm lost in my own world and I want to be alone.

I need to be alone. I started to like the feel of alcohol in my throat, it was my first time having a taste of it and it made me forget the pain for the mean time.

It was my first time going in a crowded club and the playful lights made me somehow occupied for a short time to forget him.

Because I keep thinking of him, of him and him alone.

I've been doing it for weeks with the hope that my parents wouldn't found out about it. But who am I kidding? My parents know everything.

Until here we are, being scolded by my father for mourning my broken heart.

I am being scolded for mourning my broken pride and confidence. The dignity that I have as a lady.

The perfect Aliah Alexandria King they knew begged to be loved by a guy and just got shoved away.

"I...." I tried talking but I don't know what to say anymore.

"Dad, calm down, please, you too mom." Saad ni Kuya at nakita ko pa syang inakbayan si mommy upang patahanin.

I felt guilty seeing my mother cry but I don't have the strength to say sorry.

Not now.

"How can I calm down Stephen? Sinisira ng kapatid mo ang buhay nya para sa isang lalaki! Look at these! When did you learn how to smoke?!" Galit na itinapon ni daddy ang backpack ko sa sahig dahilan para matapon ang mga laman nito.

I saw how Kuya's eyes darken when he saw a lighter and a pack of cigarettes in my bag.

Napabuntong hininga si Kuya at napasuklay sa buhok, nakatiim-bagang ngunit halata mo pa ring nagtitimpi sya dahil una, katabi nya si mommy, pangalawa, dahil alam kong hindi nya ako kayang saktan. Pisikal man o verbal.

Hindi ako umimik, nanatiling nakahawak ang magkabila kong kamay sa tagiliran ng aking palda at nanatiling nakatigin sa sahig kung saan nandoon ang pakete ng sigarilyo, ang lighter, at ang dalawang picture. Isang picture namin ng bestfriend ko na isa rin palang traydor at ang isa ay ang picture namin ng isang lalaking pinagbabaan ko ng pride at ego bilang isang babae para lang mahalin ako.

That's how f*cked up I am today and within these past few weeks, because I got dumped twice by people whom I cared the most.

I wanted to pick up my things, specially the lighter and those pictures so I could burn it.

Pero para saan pa? Tapos na. Nagawa na nila akong saktan, nagawa ko ng saktan ang sarili ko, and burning their pictures won't do a thing to ease the pain.

"Aliah.....nagkulang ba kami?" My mother's voice echoed in my head.

Nang mag-angat ako ng tingin ay nakita ko syang nasa bisig ng aking ama habang pilit syang pinapatahan nito.

My father keeps on trying to calm her down, he was hugging her and kissing her hair from time to time just to make her stop from crying.

To ease the pain I've inflicted on her, on them.

Sadness was also visible on my parents eyes.

Napayuko ako at ilang beses na umiling, umiling ako ng umiling habang lumuluha kahit pa mahilo ako, until I felt Kuya's arms envelope me into a tight hug.

Tila doon ako natauhan. After a month of being in hell, of putting myself in a pit of self pity and insecurities, tila doon ako nagising.

Like he was silently telling me that he understands me through his hug. That he knows what I feel, what I'm going through, and there I realized that I am not the only one who fell deeply inlove with someone who couldn't reciprocate my feelings.

Who couldn't love me back.

And now's the time to wake up from my dream of being a princess who can get everything that I want, who can get anyone I've invested feelings for.

Because I don't need to be a princess, I need to be a warrior.

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*cross fingers*

I hope you like it.

DISCLAIMER: This is fiction. Kaya alam nyo na, na ang mga pangalan, pananaw at mga pangyayari ay ginamit lamang para sa ikabubuo ng istorya.

This is not a perfect story, expect errors along the way as I do not also have the time to edit every chapter that I'll be posting.

Aliah Alexandria P. King is up!
Tell me what yah think. Thank you. Updates are not consistent.