The Pain Of Being Me

Silence

Why must I say "I'm not okay"
For you to see the truth
For you to see that the smile is fake
And that the pain is clear and true
Why must I shed tears from my eyes
For you to ask if its all good
When you know I'll say "just go I'm fine"
Do you ever believe my lies?
Why must I scream
"He once touched me!"
For you to see why I have no comfort
Why must I cry
"He broke my heart"
For you to see that I need fixing
Once before you ignored my calls
You thought I was a nuisance
But now that secrets have been told
You check in each passing hour
And even though you don't know everything
You now hear the screaming behind my silence
Now when people ask
"What's wrong with your friend?"
Because now you know my silent truth
You won't say these words thoughtlessly
So you'll still say that you don't know
To keep my trust that had once faded
And now you try to keep ahold
Of the remaining spark that's in me
To try to save me from the world that broke me and betrayed me