The Pain Of Being Me

Remembered Why

I remembered
I remembered why I became this way
Why I cried at night
Why I hated my own
I remembered why I live in fear
Why I'm scared to open up all my doors
I remembered why I couldn't take anymore
Why I wanted to end life before it began
Why I hated that dress
Why I never showed skin
Why I almost cried when you caused no harm to my skin
I remembered the pain
That I never forgot
That I put in a box
But memories fought out
And I remeberd their faces
But never their names
I remembered why the little girl went into a craze
I remembered why I never wanted to smile
I remembered why I was never a happy child
I recall today the reason for all my sorrow
The reason why I suddenly was pushed over edge
How a girl could be faced with all this dread
And so I remembered
What I desperately want to forget
But you can't forget the past
If it made you this mess