Oblivion

Painting

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I was woken up from sleep because I felt the sudden movement of my bed. Someone was tapping my cheeks so I was forced to open my eyes.

"Gising kana please. I'm hungry na eh." She said while pouting.

"5 minutes." I said.

"Ganyan ka naman always eh. 5 minutes. 5 minutes then you will not make gising naman eh. Maybe naglasing ka na naman last night noh?" I chuckled because I saw her looking irritated at me.

"Tatawa tawa ka pa dyan. Dali na kase please. You said that you will show me the painting na. I'm excited to see it already!" She said excitedly.

"Oo na. Oo na. I will stand up from my bed na." I pinched her cheeks.

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She sat on the table patiently waiting for me to finish cooking our breakfast. I cooked bacon and eggs.

I placed the food on the table and then we prayed. I placed some strips of bacon on her plate.

After eating breakfast, I continued painting her.

From her perfect eyebrows, to her sparkly eyes, her long eyelashes, her perfectly pointed nose, her fluffy cheeks, her very pinkish pouty lips and her short hair. She looks beautiful. Everything fits her well. She's​perfect.

When I look at the painting, I remember Ara, the girl that I loved before. Yes, before.

Sometimes I feel guilty when I remember her. Because I should have moved on and the girl that I should love now is the girl in front of me.

I closed my eyes and I am trying to remove her from my mind.

"Naalala mo na naman siya? Mas love mo padin siya more than me?" I shivered when I heard hints of sadness from her voice. I felt guilty again.

"No, baby. Love na love kita..." I said then I hugged her.

"Is the painting done na?" She changed the topic.

"Yes, tignan mo." I said.

"Ang ganda. Pero this is not me naman eh. Kamukha ko siya pero that's not me. Is she the girl that you said na 'Mahal na Mahal mo'?"

My heart felt like it broke into pieces because of her question. I had nothing else to do than to look down as my tears are falling from my eyes.

She wiped my tears and she hugged me tight.

"Sana naabutan ko siya when she was still alive, daddy. Kamukha ko ba talaga si Mommy?" She asked while sobbing.

"You look a lot like your Mommy, baby. I love you." I said and I kissed her head.

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Very short update. This was inspired from a confession that I've read in UST Secret Files.