Hazardous {Jay McGuiness Fanfiction}

Chapter 9

"Hazardous"

Chapter 9

Emily's POV

It felt like time had stopped, my mind was on overload literally replaying everything that Jay had just told me. I automatically without even realising had opened the car door and began walking towards my front door.

This was too much for one night. Too much had happened today, from school to the cinema, to seeing Derrick and Jake, to then finally learning a major part of information about Jays past.

I had just about reached the door after slowly walking up the drive, my mind still barely functioning, my body now feeling drowsy whilst begging for sleep. My arm was suddenly gripped and I was spun around to see a very panicked looking Jay. He kept a firm grip on my arm whilst staring intensely into my eyes.

"Emily don't go yet, why don't we talk some more? You can't leave me just because of this. It happened months ago, and you know I've promised that nothing would ever happen to you, please...."

By the end of his speech his tone had reached a mere whisper, whilst he looked so frightened. He was still holding onto my arm, as if maybe if he let go I would disappear and he would never see me again.

I slowly removed my arm from his grip, before replying, not being able to meet his gaze

"Jay....I just need time to think about this. I can't believe neither you or Rachael told me about this before. I just...I need some time alone. I will see you at school tomorrow."

Even without looking at his face I knew that I would instantly feel guilty if I did. But I knew I couldn't just leave him stood there on my doorstep so I quickly leant towards him, placing a light kiss on his cheek lingering for a few seconds before turning around and entering my house.

I sighed mentally exhausted from the events of this evening. It was late now so I knew that my parents would both be asleep so I quickly ran upstairs to my room as soon as I had shut the front door and entered my bedroom. My curtains were still open allowing me to see the street which was being dimly lit from the orange glow of the street lamps. I walked over to my window to see a sight that broke my heart.

In front of my house was Jay. He was sat in his car with his head in his hands whilst resting his head on the steering wheel. I could make out that his body was slightly shaking implying that he was crying. It made me so upset to see him like that but I couldn't help but know that deep down his promise that he would protect me would eventually be broken. I know that being with him will just lead to me being in danger. But watching him now whilst he sat there broken, I realised that he is definitely not what everyone labels him to be. He may have your stereotype harsh bad boy persona from first glance but I now know that there is so much more to him than that.

After a few minutes of silently watching him I heard the car slowly rumble and he sped off driving away from my house and down the street. I quickly shut my curtains, carrying out my evening routine of getting ready for bed, before finally collapsing on what I know as heaven: my bed. As soon as my body collapsed with the mattress my mind started to drift between consciousness and dreaming. As I slowly drifted off into a deep slumber however my mind wouldn't stop replaying that one sentence that Jay had said to me, the one sentence which I doubted to be true.

"Nothing would ever happen to you."

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The next morning I woke up to the annoying noise of my alarm clock. Before I even had the chance to fully wake up my mind had once again wondered to thoughts about Anne and her death. I was unsure on how to even consider talking to Rachael about this. I knew she would be extremely upset and I could tell from her hostile behaviour towards Jay that she was no where near the stage of forgiving him yet.