Divergent "I Still Love You" (Fanfiction)

Tobias Is Gone

Four

I crawl into myself, my shoulders bending.For once I want to feel smaller than I am. To disperse from my emotions and this body, to be free from whatever keeps pulling me down.

But I realize I will never be free four.

I decide to call myself the name that gaurds me. And from the loss of her. Tobias Eaton comes with more memories than id like. It felt good for Tris to say my name, like it wasnt harmful, or evil..like I wasnt just owned by Marcus, like when she said it, it was like I was finally free. I lean back and take in the wind, I stare up at the train car roof.

I smile at all the memories, its painful but back when she was here i was me. I remember when she climbed on my lap, and we kissed right here.

Feeling that physical part of her was more than I could ask for, it was like feeling strong and weak all at once.

I also remember other memories of us, our revolution.From where we started until the end.Maybe it wasnt about happy endings, maybe it was just about the story.

I recall the chasm mist on my ankles and our first unsure kiss, and the second one was strong and sure.it was nervously handled but we fit together perfectly.Also, when Peter,Drew and Al had pitched her over the chasm.

I remember carrying her all the way to my room.I felt strong but I felt bad for her, how much she had tried, tried to get through initiation, and they tried to ruin it all. Tried to ruin her.

But then I had remembered that she was strong and unbreakable.That roughed us both, two birds one stone.

I wish I could have destroyed them all, I kind of destroyed Drew, but that did not completely heal anything.It felt good though.

When we climbed the ferris wheel together,

we used

eachother to keep eachother up, that was when she found out my fear of heights.I admired her for her perceptiveness in that way.

I stand in awe of our memories together, and I love her.

I realize that all I really recalled is our good times, but really I loved our bad as well, because it made us stronger in ways we could never have imagined, and as my legs push off of that train.

I relish ALL memories of us.

As Tris And Tobias

As Six And Four.