Divergent "I Still Love You" (Fanfiction)

Mazes

Four

My dreams become clouded by pain.

As I see my reflection after I just had awaken,I feel all my armor, and things I use to protect myself from hurt, peel away and do not resurface again.

I feel like a lost child, in a maze that cant be cut through or undone.

Like all the times I try to escape,it smothers me into a new set of aisles, the maze only continues what it feels like forever.

My brain is sluggish from thinking way to much.My body is sore from the constant panicking muscles from the nightmares that seem to ingrain into me at nights.

My eyes are tired and tightly wound,making me feel too unbalanced.

I hop out of the shower searching for the towel, it has rough cotton and frayed edges.

Its soft against my chest but rough along my face.

I get dressed in a black short-sleeve shirt with grey around the him of the arms and neck.

The pants I choose are black pants.

Not jeans but not tights as well, more like a military material.

Before I pull on my shirt I see the faction seals in the mirror and i frown.

But instead of seeing them as a regret of believing in something totally useless and pointless I let it be a reminder, to myself of what those factions were, and what the meaning upheld inside a person.

I realize I still want those things.

I walk into the kitchen and my mother is on the couch, springing up on her feet, and embracing me.

"Ill see you later..okay.I dont think I should stay here, it will cause more tension between us than there already is." She says leaving.

I didnt really care if she left or not.

But I am glad she did.

I get a glass of water and sit at my kitchen table.I run my fingers through my hair trying to release some tension.

I look into the glass and see the clear liguid, the pure water.

The water feels like honey sliding down my throat.It feels nice, but i wish i could bandage all my pain and move on.But i dont want to also.

I already had lost Tris and i refuse to let her memory fade along with her body.

She was all that had receded when my life was together, she was the thing that kept my life together, and now she isnt here and guess what?

My life is one giant

Maze.