[C] Don't Recall | svt joshua

22/3/17

4.47PM

I don't know why the heck I am searching for Joshua. Morely like longing for him. He is not here and of course he is happy with the girl of his choice... I shouldn't be worried about him. Aish paboya... Last night, I kept remembering my past. I valued people wrong. That was my biggest mistake. I thought Hansol loves me more, I thought Hansol will always love me but his feelings was ephemeral.

I feel so lonely.

~Runa

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Today, I take Mingyu to a meadow. Not that big, wide meadow, just a small one downtown. The flowers have bloomed and believe me, Mingyu is more excited than me.  He practically runs through the meadown while screaming in euphoria.

I scan around then my eyes fix on Jacee who is embracing a male's waist.

Hmm, date huh?

I tiptoed to her and is about to surprise her when she and the latter turn around which is facing me a meter apart.

I am stammered to the ground, my lips become frozen and I feel like my body has been electrocuted.

"Unnie!!" Jacee is smiling from ear to ear while shaking her brother's arm.

I pretend to search for Mingyu and drag him away from them.

"Wow wow wait, you are shaking!" Mingyu pulls me closer as he put his palm on my forehead. "Are you alright?"

I shake my head, I can feel my legs trembling from all the shock received from a man called Joshua Hong.

It's been three years! Why I am feeling like this!?! 

As soon as we reach home, I harboured my rant to Mingyu while sobbing, in a total wreck. I can't believe after all these years, I still like him.

"But I don't love him like before anymore." I cry and I swear, that will be my last time to cry for Joshua.