What I Have Left

Ch.3 (Theodore's POV)

PICTURE OF THEO>>>>>>

He slapped me.

I mean I deserved it. I have been the worst friend ever. Even when he obviously needed me I wasn't there.

I know Cody isn't my friend. He is there but our friendship isn't like the one I had with Ash.I guess there isn't much of a difference other than the fact I love Ash.

That's right I love him.

I have loved him since seventh grade. I never had the courage to tell him. I have always thought he would hate me or he would ignore me. I never told anyone about my feelings. I still haven't. Cody thinks I am full on striaght because I brought some girl into a room at a party and he thought we had sex. In reality we both just passed out.

The reason i stopped being Noah's friend wasn't because I wanted to. It was just that Cody wanting to hang out with me gave me a reason to forget about Noah. At this time I was still scared on my feelings. I thought that this would actually work. The only thing it did was make me lose my best friend for some jackass' and hurt Noah along the way.

He has changed so much and it scared me . I hated how Cody would treat him. I was so happy when we found out he was gay. I thought I actually had a chance. Then Cody started beating him for it and as much as I wanted to stop him I couldn't. I always just freeze up.

Today was Monday. The worst day of the week. I got up and dressed and went downstairs to eat breakfast. Since both of my parents left early to go on a trip for a while the house was empty. Once I was finished with my meal I got in my car and drove to school.

Once I got there I headed over to Cody and his friends. I had to no where else to go. When I got there they were talking about some girl they had wanted to have sex with. Just the thought of being with a girl gave me shivers. I mean no offence to girls or anything , it is just there not my cup of tea.

"THEODORE!!" I heard Cody yell.

I turned to face him with a blank look. " What is wrong with you today>" While he asks this I saw Noah walking in the oppsite direction to get away from us without us seeing. I saw though and this was a great time to talk to him again after the whole park thing.

" Nothing, I am fine . Look man I got to go to the office . I wil see ya later." Thank god he was stupid and didn't see where I was looking.

I turned and ran after Noah. When I got to him by his locker I tapped his shoulder. He turned to face me and gave me one of his famous glares.

"Hi." I said shyly. I didn't know what to do so I just went with being clunt." Do you want to hang out later after school and I don't know do stuff?''

He shook his head and began looking around for someone. Cody I am guessing." Don't worry he isn't here." He looked up and nodded.

I got the feeling I was bothering him , but I really just want to be his friend again. It has been four long years without him. I would literally do anything to be his friend again.

" Can we please meet up. It would mean a lot to me. Trust me Cody has no idea about this. I really just want to be your friend again and I know I am to late but please give me a chance. He held out on finger that was ment for me to know to wait.

I noticed he was writing something down.

What is in it for me.His note read.

" I would do anything for you. I will stop talking to Cody. I will just be your friend. You mean much more to me than Cody anyway. Just give me a chance ." I literally begged him

Fine, only this once.He sighed

I could jump for joy. I am so glad he gave me this chance. " Awesome, how about we meet after school?" I said still trying to keep my cool.

He nodded and walked away. This time I let him.