Over, and Over Again

Chapter 14: Cancer

Cancer. It's an incurable disease that can be fatal. We never realize how terrible it really is until you're diagnosed.
First stage; shock and sympathy.
Second stage; realization.
Third stage; depression.
Fourth stage; acceptance.
Fifth stage is either beating the disease or the disease beats you.
If you make it to the sixth stage that nobody ever wants to get to, it's the cancer coming back.
When Derek found that tumor in my lungs from my MRI, my life changed. It's kinda of like another plane crash all over again. He told me, I told everyone else, and everyone gave me their sympathy. I don't need sympathy. I need a cure. These past few month have been hell. Chemo, surgeries, counseling from the crash and worst of all, being stuck at this hospital unable to do what I love; surgery. I'm stage three and I've already coded once in the 3 moths I've had this damn disease. My head is hairless, body's weak, skin pale, voice hoarse, I'm always tired and my oxygen tank has pretty much become a part of me. What really scares me, is that Zola might grow up without a mother. Derek could handle being a single parent, well, maybe when it's time for the talk, Cristina or Lexie would have to step in for that. Cristina would be fine. She'd still have surgery. And Lexie... she's got her whole life and career ahead of her. She'd be okay.

Today is the first day I'm able to go home. After 6 rounds of chemo and 4 surgeries and 3 month in the hospital. I'm happy but I just don't really care anymore. I try to show I'm happy and healthy looking as possible for everyone else. It kind of works. Bailey's pretty pissed about all of it. Her second intern to get cancer... Anyways after Derek's shift is over he's coming to release me. I can walk around now I've gotten much stronger. I'm all packed up and just sitting on my bed fiddling with my nasal cannula and the knitted Bennie Zola picked out for me when Derek walks in.

"Ready to go?" He asks smiling.

"Yeah." I say and slide off the bed rolling my portable oxygen tank behind me.

AN: Hehe I was just gonna end this with "I have cancer" or something like that but I decided to be a little nicer. There will be a sequel to this but it won't come out for a little bit longer cus I have to come up with some ideas to put it in. Anyways I hope you enjoyed this fan fiction thank you so much for all the views, votes and comments I got!! Stay updated for part 2! ☺️❤️💛💚💙💜💕