Better Judgement (Dan Smith/Bastille) -COMPLETED-

Lunchtime Judgement

I walked back into school that next morning like a shaking leaf. I was so nervous about seeing Dan, and anyone for that matter. What if everybody knew? What if Jake found out? Not that it has anything to do with Jake, but still.

‘’Hey’’ Francesca joined me at my side, playfully punching me in the arm as we walked through the gates.

‘’Hey’’ I smiled weakly.

‘’What’s up? You seem like your scared or something’’ She gave me an odd look. I decided to tell her about the kiss. She was going to find out sooner or later, and I wanted it to be from me, not the rest of the school. I dragged her behind the courts and we sat down on a bench. I threw my bag on the floor and sighed.

‘’Okay well last night, my parents went out and Dan came round to my house,’’

‘’What? How’d-‘’

‘’He was at the window so I had to let him in. Anyway, we talked for a while, watched some TV and then he started going on a massive rant and I honestly knew where it was going and I wanted to shut him up so I sort of, uh, kissed him’’.

Francesca laughed and bit into an apple.

‘’C’mon, tell me the rest! There’s bound to be more!’’

‘’Well after that. I turned away from him and faced the window. He tapped me on the shoulder and I turned back around and he kissed me again and I think I liked it but I don’t know because there’s Jake and I don’t know how I feel about him, but I really like Dan and-‘’

‘’DUDE! Shut up rambling! You and Dan are so alike!’’ She chuckled again, shaking her head, ‘’So I’m not understanding, why are you nervous?’’

I opened my mouth to speak, then closed it. I honestly didn’t know. Maybe it was because of Dan, not the kiss. Or maybe it was the opposite, the kiss, not Dan. But then again, maybe it was Jake. Whatever it was, I was going to find out today.

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Lunch time was dawning on me and I knew that I would have to face Dan. The way I felt last night was way different to my feelings now. Last night, I felt on top of the world. Dan made me feel really comfortable and happy, despite only spending a couple of hours together. But this morning, I was dreading the sight of him for some reason.

So far, I had managed to avoid Jake. I doubt he’d know, I doubt anybody would know, but I’d prefer to keep it that way till Dan and I have talked things through. I’d seen Woody this morning, we sit next to each other in maths now, I made him trade seats with Cade, since he’s now dead to me.

I made an extra effort to take the long route, make a toilet stop and walk way slower than I normally did to meet Francesca outside the music room. Once I got there, she was stood outside the room, arms folded and her foot was tapping impatiently.

‘’Where have you been?’’ she said, dragging me towards the door, although my feet stayed firmly planted on the floor.

‘’Uh, toilet…you know?’’ She rolled her eyes.

‘’Come on’’ she pulled me again.

‘’No’’

‘’Why?’’

‘’I’m scared.’’

‘’Scared of what?’’

‘’Scared of-‘’

Francesca shoved me hard into the door, so hard that it opened and I fell into the room and also into Kyle’s arms. He laughed, looking down at me.

‘’Sorry,’’ he said, helping me back up, ‘’wrong girl!’’ He stepped past me and took Francesca into a long hug and a kiss. I raised my eyebrow, staring at them.

I felt someone come up behind me. I got that feeling in the pit of my stomach and instantly realised that it was Dan.

‘’I only got told this morning, it’s just like them to keep secrets’’ He chuckled and walked back over to Will and Woody.

I went and sat down on the worktop in the corner. I pulled out my Lucozade and my phone, and scrolled through my tweets. My scrolling was interrupted when a text message flashed up on my screen. It was from Jake, sent 3 hours ago saying ‘meet me in the hall at lunch’. Whoops, stupid signal.

Just my luck, Jake walked in, a cocky grin etched onto his tanned face.

‘’Alba, I’ve been looking all over for you! Didn’t you get my text?’’ The boys stopped playing and Kyle and Francesca turned to look at us, not that Jake minded. He just carried on as normal.

‘’Uh no…’’

‘’Oh, never mind. You wanna grab some lunch with me and Taz? We were gonna head out to town, you have a free next right?’’

I felt Dan gazing at me. I looked to him, his icy blue eyes had a pleading look about them. I felt as though I would be missing out if I left. And I knew Dan wanted me to stay.

‘’Well I was having lunch here, but thanks anyway’’ I smiled small, Jake didn’t appreciate that.

‘’Well you’re sat all by yourself? Don’t any of them have the decency to talk to you?’’

Francesca laughed in the background and I just raise an eyebrow.

‘’I only just got here! Give them chance!’’

Jake gave no expression on his face. Dan came and sat down next to me and reached into my bag, pulling out my bottle of water.

‘’You mind? I have none left’’ I nodded and smiled, Dan drank some and put the water back into my bag.

‘’I’ll keep her company, don’t worry’’ Dan smiled and Jake glared.

‘’Sorry Jake, maybe tomorrow?’’ Jake turned to leave.

‘’I’ve got football practice’’ He slammed the door shut and I sighed. I didn’t want to ruin things with Jake, but I’d rather spend time with Dan and everyone else. Dan sensed my awkwardness and spoke up.

‘’Guys why don’t we show the girls our new song?’’

There were mumbled answers as the guys went over to their instruments. The beat kicked in and it had a really good feel to it, I especially like it when Dan started to sing. His voice was so perfect.

‘Obsession, it takes control,

Obsession, it eats me whole’.

Halfway through the song, I got another text. This time, it was from an unknown number. I opened it and literally felt a mixture of anger, fury, and heartbreak all at once. Francesca noticed and swore under her breath. I sighed, shaking my head.

‘Poor Jakey, all he wanted was to take you out for lunch! Such a shame. Well you won’t have to worry about anymore meal invitations, he has me now. Thanks for making him angry, he’s a great kisser when he’s mad.

Alma’.

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