March 11th, 2014
Dear Diary,
This is a sooner date to be writing in here and it's weird, but I just had some excitement that I couldn't contain!
I started talking to a girl yesterday!
I mean, it was via Instagram and I still have no idea what she looks like or who she is, but she just made an impact on me that I can't understand. Normally girls don't do that, but she did. We talked for hours and she promised to message me again today. I can't wait for her to do that.
Her name is Josie.
The only thing that I didn't enjoy too much about her was that she was awkward, really awkward. She somehow managed to get conversation flowing pretty nicely though along with me help. She was kind of perfect, but I think that she thinks I'm a girl, which isn't going to help all that much. I'm excited though.
Harry's been making fun of me all day due to the fact that I'm so invested already.
Louis has been calling me dumb. He thinks that I'm starting to fancy her too soon, but honestly I can't fancy her until I get to know her more. I'm just excited at the moment. It bothers me greatly when people fancy others right off the bat. I just don't want to be too into someone until I actually get to know them.
I mean, what if they chew their food weird?
I just want to know everything about her before I start getting too invested in someone. Josie is actually taking the time to get to know me which is something not many of the girls before have done. They've usually just messaged me about a problem and then never talked to me again.
Josie isn't that way.
It kind of started out by us always commenting on each other's photos. She was always just really nice and I loved that about her. She was so caring for her followers and when I said that I wanted someone to talk to, she offered. She dm'd me and we talked for hours, describing where we are from and what our life was like a little bit.
She's from Spain surprisingly. Most of the bloggers on the web are from America. She's moving to another country here soon, more than likely somewhere in the U.K. or America to better her education. She has a plan for her future and her best friend is going to travel along with her.
Maybe I am too invested already.
She's all I've been able to think about and that's not a good sign so far, or maybe it is. I don't know and I don't want to find out. Maybe I should take a step back from everything already.
Jesus I sound like a fucking girl, overthinking everything.
Zayn has been teasing me about being a bit feminine lately...
My thoughts are getting all jumbled again. It's just a bit too much, having this much excitement in my life again even though I don't know for sure if she'll message me again tonight. I really hope she does. It's nice to have someone who enjoys my company, giving me the attention I need even if I'm lying a bit about it right now. I don't want to lie to her too much, but I don't want to scare her off already just by telling her who I am and what I really do.
Fuck man. I'm so tired, waiting for her. Writing this next album is really tiring. Yes, I know that I complained about this yesterday. It's just hard getting our creative juices going. I mean, we're probably going to write over 80 songs, record every one of them, and narrow it down to maybe 15 tracks. Not exactly an easy job.
I'm knackered. I'm just going to go to bed and rest me knee for a little bit. I hope Josie will understand if I pass out. She seems like that kind of person.
Night
Nialler xx
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A/N: Josie does have an important purpose, but not as the love interest! I'm not dumb enough to make him fall for her that quickly, he's just excited and is writing down how he feels.
I hope to have the real love interest appear in the next chapter. We'll see though.
This is the official start of this book. Please tell me if someone is stealing my ideas or anything 'cos I really did work hard on this and I hope for it to get far. This book still has a little work needed, but it's ready(:
Please comment and vote too haha. Love you guys
Alex xx
