Gazing at the Stars

Chapter 14

The next week was hard.

Hell, the next two weeks were hard.

There was nothing hateful between the two, nor did they make up. It was just filled with misunderstood glances and tears hidden behind masks. They didn't speak to each other, and I could see the pain in each of their faces when someone would ask about them.

Hinata and I told the team, together. Both, understandably missed practice that Monday, and we told the team about their breakup and how it affected them both. We didn't mention them being fuck buddies more than lovers. We didn't mention how we had to take care of them that night and all Sunday.

When they did come back, they just avoided each other.

Avoidance became awkwardness.

Awkwardness became glances.

Glances became pain.

Pain became comfort.

Comfort became healing.

Healing finally became acceptance.

And I was there every step of the way with Tadashi, similarly to how Hinata was there for Kageyama.

Finally, almost a month after they broke up, words were exchanged. They didn't talk about being together. They didn't talk about what went wrong. They didn't talk about their breakup. They said simple words to each other, like they were at least acquaintances again.

And from there, it blossomed into a normal friendship. Thankfully they didn't seem awkward with each other. They seemed... okay.

I didn't tell Tadashi, but I caught Kageyama kissing Hinata against a wall after practice. I just gave Hinata a thumbs up, and after the initial blush of being caught was over, he just winked at me. Kageyama had no idea, and I just kept walking and pretended it never happened.

Yet here I am.

I haven't made a move on Tadashi, yet. He's healed from the breakup by now. But, I am afraid to rush things. I am afraid to push him too far. And I am afraid that if I got with Tadashi and things went wrong, we wouldn't be able to get back to normal like Tadashi and Kageyama did.

That is my biggest fear.

Tadashi and I have been a constant since that night. I haven't kissed his head, nor his face, like I did that night, since it happened. We didn't talk about it either. We didn't need to. I needed to comfort him, so I did what I thought best; I kissed his face. We didn't touch lips, there wasn't anything romantic about it, but I did manage to help him.

What am I doing right now?

Tadashi, Kageyama, Hinata, Yachi and I are all over at Hinata's house watching a movie. This is honestly just entertaining; I can't help it.

Yachi is sitting in a reclining chair by herself, holding a bowl of popcorn and snacking on it from time to time. When I got up to go to the bathroom, and returned, I had walked behind her and saw her texting. She was texting Kiyoko. I didn't read the messages, but there was definitely some flirting going on and every time I looked at Yachi, her face was flushed.

Kageyama and Hinata are sitting on the big couch with Tadashi and I. They are on the left end, and they are pretending they are not together. Kageyama is in the corner, and his legs are pulled up to his chest, with about a foot gap between his legs and chest. Hinata is slightly leaning on him, but not enough to give away that they are together. What does give it away is the glances they throw each other and the way if you look really closely, you can see that Hinata's arm is back and in Kageyama's lap, fingers intertwined.