Pure At Heart

Pure At Heart (14) On The Path Unwinding - Part 2

"Not so! All who submit themselves completely to Allah and are good-doers will find their reward with their Lord. They will feel no fear and know no sorrow." (Al-Baqarah , 112)

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I could feel the doctor's hand on my wrist every now and then and I could hear my mother's and sister's concerned voices. But I was too weak to open my eyes and see what's going on. I kept my eyes closed.

After a time pace of ten minutes, I felt the doctor place an oxygen mask on my face. I felt a little better since I was having trouble breathing. I decided to get a little sleep and get a little more comfortable in the bed; I probably had to be in for the next 24 hours. I was trying to sleep but the doctor's and my mother's muffled voices kept distracting me.

"She's perfectly fine now but we will keep her under observation for the next 48 hours. She's just under a lot of stress and all she needs is to relax", the doctor was saying.

"She's fine? Is there any news or..?" Hafsa asked doctor Karen. I heard her laugh. "I know. The symptoms are very much like pregnancy symptoms but she's not pregnant. She's just stressed out and has lost a lot of weight in the last 1 week. You  need to take care of her diet", Doctor Karen said. Wait, Hafsa thought I was pregnant?

"But, Doctor Karen - She told me she's been throwing up for the last 5 days and she gets dizzy every now and then. How can she not be pregnant?" Hafsa asked again. Why did she want me to become a mother so soon?

"I understand. She's married and she felt the same as one feels when one is pregnant but trust me, I checked her and she's not. There is nothing growing inside her. She's not healthy but I also don't see anything so...” the doctor finished. They were talking so quietly, I had to have my full attention in order to understand what they were saying.

"I still don't understand this.. But you checked so", Hafsa said.

"Let me take you to my office and I'll explain in more depth. We need a quiet environment for Hamna right now", said Karen and then I heard all three of them walking outside, closing the behind them. I knew I had a nurse standing close to me so I was relieved I wasn't alone. But more importantly, I was relieved I wasn't going to be a mother any time soon. I had to fight this over with Hafsa. Why in the world was she so excited about me being a mother? I love kids but I don't plan on having one before I've understood how to take care of a child. I turned my head sideways and tried to sleep again; this time succeeding.

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I think I woke up 6 or 7 hours later, because I could see the daylight through the window blinds. My oxygen mask was still on my nose but unlike before, I wanted to take it off. I started breathing heavy so the nurse beside me quickly got up from her seat and checked to see if I was ok. I told her to take off the mask and so she did as she was told.

"This means you're feeling good. Taking the mask off is a good thing", the nurse smiled as she touched my wrist to check my pulse.

Yeah.. who said it isn't?

After 10 seconds, she let go of my wrist and put a wrist band on the same wrist. It read my name and the time I had checked in last night.

"Where is my family?" I asked her.

"Oh they're all in the waiting room. Your husband was here a few hours ago but then he went and sat outside", she said as she pressed the remote's button so that the back of the bed was now standing and I was slightly sitting up. I looked at her. Did she just say 'husband'?

"My husband was here? When did he come?" I asked the nurse. Apparently her name was Eva. She didn't look any older than Hafsa but I knew she was.

"I think he came around 4 O'clock. He was in here for quite a while. I think for an hour", she was busy in scribbling something down on her notepad. She still hadn't satisfied me. Why would Zayd be here? He hated me.