Buckingham Nicks-Part II of Fritz Series

Moment of Clarity

***A/N there's an upcoming section that's not in Lindsey's POV...well not really ;). Enjoy!***

My mood is heightened considerably as I walk hand in hand with Stevie into Dr. Schlicz's office. Mom and Jeff are going to meet us for lunch later with Sara and I can't wait to see my baby girl, neither can Stevie. "I hope she doesn't think we abandon her...oh Linds what if she's mad at us?" I kiss her cheek tenderly smiling as she frets needlessly "Baby, she's not even two. Besides she loves her Nana and I know your parents and Chris snuck over and spoiled her too." She bites her nail still looking worried. I rub her shoulders leaning into her discreetly "Besides it was good for her to be away for a while, we need time alone too". I kiss her again her face blushing as she no doubt recalls our alone time.

She glances at me coyly and I pinch her hip, squealing she kisses my neck, and I pull her into my lap. I feel so care free, more than I've felt in weeks. Things feel wonderful the way they were. I'm sitting here with my wife, the two of us necking like love sick idiots without a care in the world. I look around the waiting room pleased that there are no other patients and that the receptionist is busy on the phone "Lets go home babe". Stevie kisses me deeply "Why? So you can get fresh with me? My mother warned me about boys like you Lindsey Buckingham."

Waggling my eyebrows I pull her to me growling as I kiss and nip her collar "I want you Steph, lets go home I can always call in another appointment" Honestly I'm starting to feel better maybe I can cut back to once a week. "Mmmm you already checked in" she doesn't sound all that eager to stay, and I know I can change her mind. My mouth presses against her breast kissing her through her blouse; she squeaks pulling me to her before she pulls away blushing furiously "Lindsey, honey" she giggles shyly "What's gotten into you?"

Shrugging I lift her in my arms and she holds my neck "I don't know I just know I don't want to be here. I want to go home and be with you" my whole being protested this morning when I had to wake up for this appointment, last night was my birthday and our anniversary. We should be at home in bed waking up to each other, loving each other..." Okay. Let's go!" I kiss her lips hard standing, she laughs again holding on to me as I swing her around in my arms headed toward the door "Besides I didn't get to see that new lingerie yet". Nuzzling my beard, she whispers to me softly "You want me to model it for you?" I need to get to the car yesterday.

We're just about to head out the door when the office opens and Schlicz clears her throat. It's like someone doused me with ice water, and Stevie's flirtatious mood vanishes. She pats my shoulder signaling for me to put her down and I do, sighing in resignation. "I'm sorry to interrupt. Lindsey please go through" Stevie looks away in embarrassment grabbing a magazine and taking a seat to wait on me.

The door shuts behind me and I feel the immense cold and fear creeping back into me. I don't want to be here I want to be with my wife in bed. "Have a seat Lindsey" If I must. My temper rears it's ugly head, the good doctor the target. "How was your weekend?" I don't make eye contact stroking my beard in frustration "Great, it was my birthday" she wishes me happy birthday and I grunt in her general direction.

"You seem very distant. What's troubling you?" I'm painfully aroused and unable to do anything about it. "Look, lets just get on with it okay? I've got things to do". I'd rather just leave honestly, "Lindsey, you and your wife were alone this weekend?" so what if we were? "Yeah, my mom took Sara so we could celebrate...alone. I don't know if you're married but that's important sometimes." I'm being a sarcastic asshole but I don't care.

"I'd like to try another regression today..." No. I don't want another session of that. I went through hell after that I wasn't the same. "I don't need it. In fact, I'm doing better so I was thinking of cutting our sessions back. Maybe once a week-"placing her notes down she folds her hands in her lap. "I think that could be disastrous, you may have an episode of rage. This is like antibiotics Lindsey you must take the full course even if you feel better. Otherwise your condition will not get better"