Buckingham Nicks-Part II of Fritz Series

Detection, Discussion, Desire

***We've had a few chapters without smut...so smut NSFW. Also plot and emotional stuff 😉 ***

"I want answers Lindsey, because I'm more confused than I've ever been in my fucking life" she's not the only one, I just can't have a normal life, can I? I think back on spirt dream Lindsey...he wanted my life. Maybe I should shut the hell up and be happy with what I have. It could be worse, Stevie could hate me and only speak to me through her personal assistant. And I could apparently be married to some shrewish blonde chick who tells me what I can and can't play on stage...

"I don't really know; not the whole thing not yet but I want you to promise me something." Time for another gamble, actually this is a fucking Hail Mary "Okay what?" squeezing her knee caps I stand up it's my turn to pace the floor "No matter how crazy this all sounds it's one-hundred percent true. And for no reason, under no circumstances tell any of it to Doctor Schlicz" she eyes me warily contemplating the proposition before her. If she's talked to Carol Ann, then she already has doubts about the good doctor. Can I push those doubts further?

"Alright. But no holding anything back I want all the answers no matter how hard they are to hear" I swallow a lump in my throat my chest tightening anxiously. Here goes everything "Dr. Schlicz has been brainwashing me; since the moment I walked into her office she's been dosing me with something called flourizepridiszepm...something like that. Anyway, it's a sedative hypnotic which makes people open to suggestion. I went to her to help me with my nightmares about dad's death...then my drinking...the outbursts all of that. I admit I was out of control okay, I wasn't coping well not at all. Well she picked up on my anger issues the second we met..." Stevie raises her eyebrows in mock disbelief.

"Stevie, she gave me tea the first time I met her when I flipped out and threw the chair through her window..." she stops me her hand waving "You're saying she made you do that" clearing my throat in embarrassment I shake my head "No..I did that because I was pissed. The point is she planted the first suggestion in my head that day. She told me I was potentially violent, physically violent. I didn't realize it then but she was pushing her regression shit on me. I admit I was drunk that day I punched the wall, but I've never once thought about being violent toward you or Sara not before she implanted the suggestion that I needed to stay in her office or I would hurt you"

Stevie spins her wedding ring around, and I can tell she's having trouble swallowing this. I push on, knowing she needs to hear all of it it's too late to stop now "She's a nut case her father was a Nazi and she saw him get lynched by an angry mob after the war. She's been experimenting with people's minds ever since then; trying to find a way to get the memory of her father's death out of her own mind, but never brave enough to try her shit out on herself. She figures if she can plant a memory or an experience she can remove one too." The thought of that scares me more than I can comprehend.

She could potentially remove all of my memories of childhood, high school, learning to play guitar, making both of our Buckingham Nicks albums, Stevie, Sara. Even Sandra and Javier, loath as I am to admit it I'd rather have those memories than have them taken away. I'd rather have my memories of Dad, even though he's gone then have her take them away from me. People need their memories, that's what makes us fucking human...I realize I'm monologuing internally and I focus on Stevie. She looks as mind fucked as I feel.

"I met her first subject her ex-boyfriend his name is Max he's a God damn rocket scientist and she fried his brain. She made him attack his own sister, she implanted the suggestion that he try and kill her. She wanted him locked up forever, and that's what happened. Her other patients, the ones that were either too strong or to resistant to her manipulation are in that hell hole I just got out of." I wonder if any of this is making an impact, or maybe Stevie's waiting for me to finish so she can have me locked up again.