Quietly Noticed || Lams

From a different angle

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Laurens|First Person

"I love you too." Alexander leaves the car with a huge grin on his face. I try not to let the guilt I feel show on my face. He seems so happy and I feel like an asshole for what I did. I was in the same state he is this morning, waking up with him in my arms, showering together, it was like being a real couple that didn't have to worry about phone calls that ruin their perfect mornings together.

"Hey, John. It's time for that favor of mine."

"Really? Now? Can't it wait until one?"

"Nope. A deal's a deal. So, unless you want me to talk to the dean about you and Alex-"

"I'll do it. What do you want?"

"Be at that little coffee shop that you and your friends love so much. I'll be there at twelve."

I glance down at the clock, cringing at the conversation I had with Jasmine this morning. I try to focus on the time I spent with Alex instead. The past couple of hours with him have been the most amazing in my life. I just need to do this for Jasmine, then I can never speak to her again. Once this is over with, Alex and I can have a much more relaxed relationship.

I take a deep breath and glance up to see that Alex has since disappeared further into campus. I decide the coast should be clear, so I get out of my car and walk around the outskirts of the campus toward the cafe. He should be with Lafayette for the next half hour or so, so I think I can do this with Jasmine real quick, then buy some coffee and surprise him. I think that would level out the indirect lying I've been doing, not to mention that Lafayette is still a little bitter towards me.

I walk into the shop that's pretty vacant. There's only a girl around Alex's age with a laptop and a coffee and two men that look a little older than me and talk in low voices over their drinks. No Jasmine though, I feel a twinge of annoyance.

I walk up to the counter and order two white mochas for Jasmine and I from Angelica who Hercules seems to know pretty well as of late. She offers me a smile and small talk while she prepares my order, telling me Hercules got a cold and she came in to cover his shift. I tell her I'm here for a meeting with a professor and she nods in understanding. I feel a little worried she'll pass this on to Hercules and he'll tell Alex. I guess I'll just have to track him down and explain.

I sit back down at a table and sip my coffee, waiting for Jasmine who shows up ten minutes late in an oversized sweater and jeans, a change from her usual smart attire. I raise an eyebrow at her before she sits down and leans forward on the table to explain.

"That's my ex over there." She juts her chin to the the table that the two men sit at. "He's having some issues letting me go, so I need you to make him jealous." I roll my eyes at her.

"So you ruined my day with Alex so I can be a part of your mind games?"

"There's more to the story, just none that you need to know about." She leans in a little closer to me. "Smile and touch my arm or something," she hisses. "Pretend you're not gay and flirt with me." I hold back another eye roll and smile at her, reaching up and touching her arm lightly. She smiles and leans in again. "Now laugh." I do as she says, laughing my best fake laugh and tilting my head toward her.

She glances around again. "Are we good?" She bites her lip and laces our fingers and smiles tightly back down at me.

"Just hang out here with me until he leaves, ok?"

I sigh. "Ok."

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About an hour later when Alex has since probably left for his cousin's house and Jasmine has left the coffee shop I feel conflicted. I'm mad at Jasmine, and at myself for giving in to her. I sit alone at the same table, missing Alexander.

Angelica comes over with a pot of coffee. "Refill?" She asks, I nod. "Who was that girl you were with? You seemed happy with her." She raises an eyebrow at me, probably wondering about Alex.

"It's a long story. I don't really like her." She hums, unconvinced. "I'll tell you about her later. I have to talk to Lafayette first." She nods, seeming a little more content with my answer.

I sigh and set my head on my arms. The bell on the door chimes as starts Angelica walks away from me. "Speak of the devil." She says to me in a quiet voice. I look up at her as she walks away, then looking over to see an angry Lafayette who walks swiftly to the chair across from me and sits down.

"What did I tell you?" He asks in an even, calm tone. My chest tightens at his words.

"What do you mean?" I ask as I sit up straight and avoid his gaze.

"When you and I first met I told you something. Do you remember what it was?" I shake my head. "I told you not to hurt him. I told you Alex is a good kid. He doesn't deserve what you did to him." He glares evilly at me.

"Laf, let me explain. I told you Jasmine wanted a favor, I didn't mean for Alex to see us." He rolls his eyes.

"Why didn't you tell him the truth then?" I look down.

"I didn't want to hurt him."

"Well, you did a great job with that, now didn't you?" He stands abruptly and I find myself chasing after him, wanting to beg for forgiveness, for him to let me explain myself to Alex who I'm sure hates me by now. I mean, how could he not? I took his virginity and told him I loved him all in one night, just to have him think I was cheating the next day.

I stop following Lafayette when I step out into the cold air. I suck in a breath and shove my hands into my pockets of a hoodie I'm pretty sure is Alex's. Tears prick my eyes and I find myself walking back to my car with my head down.

Once I'm inside I pull out my phone and hover my finger over Alex's contact. I pick up the edge of his jacket and breathe in the scent of his cologne. I'm brought back to last night with him leaning over me, his eyes wide and breathing heavy as he falls into a blissful state and I just admire him.

Hey, it's Alex. Leave a message.

"Hey, Alex. It's me." Tears fall in fat drops down my cheeks and a sob threatens to rip from my throat. "I'm sorry. Please give me a chance to just explain myself." My words shake near the end, but I manage to hang up before I fall apart completely.  

I kinda of hate this but I'm too tired to rewrite it. Also I wrote all this like a month ago so I forgot it was such a cliffhanger.
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