Lucidity 2

III

"This all started about a month ago. I spoke to her, and the more our conversations grew, the more realistic she became. I initially thought no harm of it, I just saw her as a dream world person I can talk to. After about the fifth visit, she kissed me. Again I didn't see any harm in it because I felt like it was just a dream. Then after that our relationship grew and we saw each other every night. I began to worry after a couple weeks when she started asking why I had to leave and where I was going. I was truthful with her and then she started trying to come with me. I laughed it off at first because I didn't think I'd actually be possible. Then one night she held onto me as I was waking and we both got stuck in that dimension she's in now. I was powerful enough to eventually awake after some time of panicking and not knowing where I was or why my control was so limited. I tried dreaming her back into the dream world but I can not because she is unwilling and I am not powerful enough to force her. I honestly am frightened and don't know how I am going to solve this."

"You should be scared, but I have an idea," I replied forcefully.

"What is that?" She asked hopefully.

"First of all, the fact that you are panicking is a strong factor that is weakening your power and your control. You must stay calm and strong minded for this to work, just like in the very beginning when you were beginning your lucid dreaming abilities. You taught me yourself that with lucidity we can do anything if we put our mind to it. Another thing, we are twice as powerful together. With both of our subconscious aptitude on focus, I know we can do absolutely anything."

"I think we can to," she replied softly looking into my eyes. "I don't know what I'd do without you." She continued.

"You should," I replied angrily knowing exactly what she will infer from that.

"Please Primrose, whatever you do, just don't leave me. I made a mistake. Please let me learn from in and make it up to you."

I'm sitting here with a stone cold expression on my face, faking it so well because I'm trying hard not to break down right now.

"Could I stay here tonight? Maybe tonight we can rest and on the way to school tomorrow we can finishing planning this through." Lucy asked.

"No, you're gonna have to dream or try not to dream about your little girlfriend somewhere else." I coldly replied.

Lucy walked over to me and held me for a long moment even though I was not embracing her at all, and apologized once again. "Tonight I'll give you some space and some time to think." Then she started on her way home. The night I'm having is empty and dreadful. I'm going to try and have a dreamless sleep. I clear my mind, I don't want to think about a thing as I slowly drift.

The school day is going by slow as ever. There's an awkward yet hurtful silence in each class that I have with Lucy. She made an attempt a couple times to speak but I naturally gave her a cold, bitter attitude even though I am deeply hurting inside. I won't let her see, I refuse to break down in front of her.

"You blocked me out last night," she said. I know she's referring to her trying to enter my dreams.

"I know, I wanted to clear my mind. I tried but my night was quite restless actually." I replied in a sharp tone with a quick look into her eyes.

"I know it was my fault, all of this is my fault. You must know in your heart Primrose that I never meant to hurt you. I made a mistake, a very, very stupid mistake. I wish there was some way I can make it up to you but I know I never can. But if you give me this once and only opportunity, I assure you the rest of my life will be spent trying."

I avoided eye contact because I knew if I moved the tears would start streaming down my face. I took a minute to blink them away and remained silent. The rest of my day at school I was silent. When the last period bell rang I was slightly relieved. I was distracted the whole day and wasn't able to focus very well at all. My heart is aching. I walk a little slower than usual in the halls, not really in a rush anymore for much at all. When I finally reached my car Lucy was already on the passenger side.

"Have you had enough time to clear your mind?" Lucy asked as I'm closing my door. I know what she's leading up too. I just glanced at her and started my drive on the way home.

"Thank you," Lucy continued.

I hope I didn't just make the wrong decision by not dropping her off at home first. When we arrived in my driveway there was a large rectangular box on the porch.

"Is that the dress already?" I asked surprisingly.

"I guess so, try it on I can't wait to see how amazing we look in them together," replied Lucy.

That lifted my mood a little bit. I can just imagine us now at prom together.

"You have no idea how much I've missed that smile," Lucy continued.

I looked into her eyes, she looks so sincere and apologetic. Then I finally open the door and headed to the porch. The box is pretty light weight. We carried it to my room and I went into my small walk-in closet to try mine on again and leave her with the other one. There is a dimly lit mirror on the door as I close it. Before I put on the dress I stare at my reflection for a while. I almost begin to cry. Am I not pretty enough for Lucy anymore? Am I not her type? Maybe I bore her. I decide to wipe away the few tears that found their way down my face and go ahead with the dress. After a quick glance, I tap on the door and wait for Lucy's approval to come in. When I walk out she is actually not finished changing.

"You know you don't have to do that Primrose," said Lucy.

I know what she means. "I know, I just feel like we still kind of need a little more space," I reply.

Lucy began to walk towards me in only her deep blue underwear. She looks so extraordinary, I almost forget what's been haunting my mind since what happened at the mall. She then wraps her arm around my waist and slowly unzips the zipper on the side of my dress. Seconds later the dress in surrounding my feet in a circle on the floor. After admiring one another's body we locked eyes for the longest, then found our way to my bed.