Drama, In More Ways Than One

Chapter 5

~Benjamin's POV~

My heart is frantically beating.

I can't stop the fear that has already consumed me.

I'm gonna start hyperventilating!

"Ben?"

"Ben whats wrong?" I hear someone ask.

I look up to see Lacey looking at me. Concern and most of all, confusion etched into her face.

I stare at her for a second before replying.

"Yeah I'm fine. I'm just gonna sit in the car for a couple. Go catch up to Maura. I'll lock the car." I say with a forced smile that I hoped she hadn't noticed.

But she did because she gave me one of her suspicious looks.

'Please don't go further into this' I try to say telepathically.

She better get the idea.

Her suspicious glare slowly melted away from her face.

I'M FUCKING TELEPATHIC!!!

HELL YES!!!!!

"Ok. But if you need to talk to someone Benny, always know that you can talk to me." she said with a genuine smile.

I smiled back at her, a true smile this time. Lacey was awesome. She knew when I didn't want to talk. We've known each other since freshman year. I swear, if I hadn't met her, I probably wouldn't have any friends. Well I have lots of friends now, I just wouldn't have anyone as close as Lacey.

"K." I say trying to sound nonchalant.

Lacey rolled her eyes and walked away probably catching up with Maura like I told her.

By now, my heart has stopped thumping in my chest and my breathing has gone back to its original rhythm.

I couldn't believe the whole car incident. I didn't know if I should have shielded myself like I used to or fight back. I didn't know if Parker would do what I thought she would do.......what Emily would've done.

All of those painful memories that I tried to bury within myself, came flooding into my mind.

My heart began beating even more erratically than before. Beads of sweat were now lining my forehead.

Oh no not again.

I attempted to calm myself down by saying, "Ben you're fine. No one will do it ever again. No one. Not anyone," over and over again.

With my calming words, I came back to my normal reality.

I sighed with frustration. I got to get a hang of all this shit!!! I feel so weak!

I covered my hand with my face when suddenly, the bell rang, which meant I was late to class.....on the first day of school.

Fuck!

I shot out of the car, making sure to lock it so that Lacey wouldn't have a bitch fit, and sprinted to the opening of the bottomless pit I call school. I burst through the double doors and saw no one there. Awesome! I got my schedule out of my back pocket. I saw that my class was on the first floor. I sped walked to a set of classrooms.

Okay......

143

144

145

I opened the door to room 145, all eyes were on me as I strolled into the room.

"Why are you late?" the teacher snapped.