Let it Go

3. Confused feelings

Sangram's POV

What Shru is doing? Why she hadn't picked my phone? I know that girls were planning on a night out at Swara's place. But it has never happened that Shru didn't answer my call.

I am really concerned for her well-being, that girl attracts trouble wherever she goes. Because of her clumsiness & a very good heart.

We are best friends since the college started. And the concern I have for her increases with each passing day. And god knows I care for her.

"Still no reply! Lover boy." Saish stopped chain of thoughts.

"I am not a lover boy, we are just friends" was my reply to him.

"Go tell yourself"

I care for Shru more than friend and I am very much sure about it. But is it love? I don't know the answer. And unless and until I am 100% sure for my feelings I will not encourage anything.

She also has feeling for me I know that. Her eyes tell me a lot about her feelings. But damn my heart! it is clouded with so much emotions I am not sure which one is real. I have a protective side for her which is more like when I am with Shanaya.

It's not a possessiveness of boyfriend, it is more like a brotherly instinctive. I don't want to mislead her. She is very good person and if I am not clear about my feelings, I am going to hurt her. And that is the last thing I want to do to her. I want that perfect smile on her face forever.

Once Shanaya asked me

"Are you in love with your Shru?"

"What? No. Why would you think like that?"

"You are always doing one of the three things,

1. Talking with Shru,

2. Speaking about Shru,

3. messaging Shru.

And don't deny it. I have been observing over whole holydays. It is always one of the three things."

"I am not sure yet sis. You will be the first one to know it."

"You know Bro, I want best for both of you. And be damn sure about your feelings before you go for anything. Broken hearts are very hard to amend."

Shanaya cares for everyone, and I mean it everyone as in EVERYONE. She can care for someone who is not even known to her. There is a lot I can learn for her but oh god! She is not that considerate in my case. She always annoys me beyond limit. And I love her beyond limit.

When Mom/Dad is doing something that she can do she takes over their chores to do. But when my turn comes up she pushes her own work on my shoulder. Maybe she loves them more than me. Or maybe she believes that I will be always there for her.

Once I voiced out my opinion to her that she doesn't like me as much as she does to Mom and Dad, she surprised me by saying it is other way around. She knows that I have always got her back and no matter what she knows I will be there for her. That almost brought tears to my eyes. Remembering all the events I decided to give her a call tomorrow.

Shruti was feeling guilty when I received her call this morning saying that she totally forgot about phone and it was switched off. She said Sorry for couple of hundred times. Her voice and her face are the things that I never want to be sad.

She is precious gem, which I don't want to taint. That is the only reason I haven't asked her to be my girlfriend.

Once she asked me not to leave her side. If my feelings are not that kind of feeling then we would eventually break up. And then we will never be the same again. I don't want to lose our precious friendship and so here I am sitting alone and waiting for my heart to make up his own mind.

I have seen in movies that people say it's not working out as girlfriend boyfriend, let's be only friends. But I never believed in that line, because I know it is never going to be same.

I went to sleep thinking what Shruti is to me? I have to find out my true feelings for her but without hurting her.

Shruti's POV

Since I have bought bike, I am in love with riding. I didn't knew riding a bike can be so much of a fun. Mainly when you are driving on the highway, air whipping on your face, somewhat blurred surrounding will give you the exhilaration. It gives me happiness. I still remember when I was learning bike with the help of bro Chaitanya. He said to me couple of hundred times that I can ride cycle then riding a scooty, it is not that much difficult task. It is a button start bike with no gears at all. You only have to control two things acceleration with right hand and breaks with left hand. And I realize that it is really easy when I drove it for the first time.

Mom called me as I was entering our Room.

"Hello Mom"

"Hello, are you at home or at Swara's"

"I am at hostel mom, just came back from Swara's"

"Ok! Then what you people has done this time."

"Nothing Mom, as usual we made dinner watched movies till dawn. And today we went for shopping at Mall, Aarya wanted to buy a dress for a function at her home."

"Ok, What about dinner?"

"Don't know Mom, I will see what Niki says"

"Don't eat magi as dinner beta; you will be hungry by midnight."

"No Mom, I will be just fine. Don't worry about me"

"Ok look after yourself and call me again tomorrow."

"Will do Mom, love you. Take care"

"Love you too, Bye."

Niki was standing right next me when I was talking with Mom sending glares in my direction.

"What? Why are you looking like that at me?"

"Why didn't you told me that you are about to come, I am hungry. I was about to call you and ask you to bring something to eat"

"Let me freshen up and we will go to grab something."

"No, you rest and I will bring something to eat."

"Come soon."

"Yeah I will be around corner"

I am in my bed reading on Wattpad book of Rob Thier one of my favourite writer. Seriously his stories are something else very unique. His stories are such that you can never predict what is going to happen next. He has the ability to hold his reader's attention. Currently I am rereading 'Storm & Silence', very interesting story something out of blue always pop up in this series. Story between Statue like Mr. Rickard Ambrose and oh so sweet little Lily is so spell bounding that you go for one after another book of his.

It is my habit to sleep while reading books. Everyone at home thinks that I am always chatting with someone, but whenever they come to check on me they come to know that I am not chatting with anybody instead I am reading a book. I also want to become a writer and I know that it is not an easy job.

Sleep never comes to me early. It comes when the whole surrounding is fast asleep. Today is no different everyone else is fast asleep and I am reading novel.