《Recovered Times》Kim Samuel [COMPLETED]

Chapter 2.5

Why was she reaching out to me now? After all these years? With everything we went through together, I thought she'd say something sooner.

Why didn't I say anything before? Well that was because she obviously wanted to be left alone. She obviously didn't want me in her life.

But why now? Why now did she seem like she never wished to break me? Did she even know she broke me? Did she even care..?

Maybe she was just reaching out to me because she knew me before I was well known and now I was. Was I not good enough for her? Were the bragging rights not enough? Was it not enough to have the name of Kim Samuel in her life? Maybe it wasn't, until the title of "K-Pop idol" was added to it.

I can't manage to think of any other reason for her sudden contact with me. Three years of silence and all of a sudden she speaks up. It shocked me, honestly. I barely got any sleep last night, thinking about her.

And what was her spam of messages all about? She texted me and I responded. I obviously wouldn't have answered if she texted me while I was busy. My manager would cut my head off.

Maybe I was too harsh on her. I mean, she was saying sorry a whole lot of times and all I did was say I didn't believe her words.

But how could I?

Three years ago she broke my trust. She took it, threw it on the ground, shattered it into pieces, then stomped on it for good measure. Sorry doesn't fix that. Sorry doesn't repair all the trust I gave her and I gave her all the trust I had as a young naive kid.

Her last words were being copied and pasted all over my brain.

This was all my fault.

Was it? At this point, I honestly didn't know. It can't be entirely her fault.

I didn't correct her afterwards. I didn't even say anything afterwards. I didn't know what to say. I couldn't say anything.

I groaned and buried my head in my hands. She was so confusing! I didn't know how to feel. She was confusing me! Should I be angry that she ignored me for three years straight after everything? Should I feel guilty that I didn't reach out to her first? Should I be happy that I had contact with her again? Should I keep my guard up incase she was planning to redo what she did before? Should I let her in again? What do I do?!

AGHH, Evelyn, what are you doing with my mind?