Exerts of a Story I'll Never Write

Exert 12

I say I'm ok, but really I'm broken. I'm always tired now and I don't know why. Can't he see what he's doing to me? Its all so draining, being with him. But he's gone now, he's not coming back, ever. He's toxic to me and for a year I couldn't see that like my best friend could. Anytime we talked it was complaining about him. Is he toxic or just addicting? Maybe it's because you're still scared to be alone. Or maybe it's because at home doesn't feel safe. It's not safe at all there, you can't say how you feel without being torn down or apart. You're not allowed to have an opinion because you're just a kid. You say one wrong thing and it's a freak out with a grounding. Why can't I just live in peace? Can't say anything at home, can't say anything bad infront of him. All you can do is stay quiet, he listened for a little while, but now he doesn't so what can you do now?
You do nothing because he's not coming back ever. Shocker he chose someone else over you. What were expecting of him? That's how he is! He reads your texts, but never replies if it's you. If it was anyone else in the entire world he would reply, but since it's you he stays silent. It's as though he's laughing at your existence, he can't stand to even look at you.
He's wrapped around his best friend's finger and he's not going to let go of him. You were thrown away like an unwanted toy and all he has to say to you is I love you as he throws you away.