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*Madelyn's POV*

I knew I needed to tell him sooner or later. There's still so many months till graduation and I still have no clue what I'm even doing.

I should have been more excited but to be honest, I wasn't expecting an acceptance letter that quickly especially from Columbia. I had visited Columbia University a few years ago on a family trip to New York and I fell in love with it. Sure I was only 16 at the time and my mind was set on going to college but now I'm stuck with everything. I know he shouldn't affect me this much but it just does. 

I had to pretend to be excited only because my mother was so thrilled. She went to Columbia herself and the fact that her daughter got accepted too made her happier beyond belief. My father was so excited that he canceled an important meeting just so he could take us all out to dinner to congratulate me on my acceptance. I literally sat at the table faking my excitement while my parents ranted about what they would have to do, what I would have to do, and everything they loved about college.

They basically were willingly telling me that I needed to go. I mean they assume I have full intentions of going to college but hell what do I even know anymore. I would love to live in New York City, it's a lot different than Los Angeles but maybe the hustle and bustle of the city would be a good change for me. Something different to get me out of my shell. 

I'm so proud of you Madelyn. You worked really hard for this and I'm so happy you did everything I recommended. I expect you to get accepted to more colleges in the next coming weeks. Remember if you ever need anything I'm always in my office during school hours and I'll be able to help you more if you have any questions.

I emailed my counselor only because I felt like I needed answers. Except the thing is she's exactly like my parents. Where does it say I need to go to college in a different state. Who says I need to do something like this even when I don't want to. I'm just overthinking everything.

*Harry's POV*

Saturday morning I made plans with Madelyn to go take a jog on the beach. We did it occasionally but sometimes I'm just too lazy to get off my ass and actually do something. Everything with Mads had be confusing lately. Ever since our kiss and the party, I'm just stuck. I don't have enough courage to actually do something out of the ordinary like admit my feelings to her. Fuck, how if she doesn't feel the same about me? What if I stand there and pour everything out and she just laughs. I know she wouldn't but I can't lose her as my best friend. But she's everything I want in someone and I am convinced, it's stupid, but she's my soulmate. 

We met up at my car and she was wearing yoga pants with a school tee. Her hair in a ponytail and a large water bottle in her hand. She slid into the passenger seat and smiled at me, "Morning."

"Hey." The drive to the closet beach was a few and I couldn't help but notice she was being off about everything. I knew something was bothering her but I didn't have enough guts to ask her what was wrong. This is exactly why I knew that we should never have done anything in the first place because around her I just feel like an awkward slump who wants nothing more to kiss her but not make her uncomfortable. 

"Is something wrong?" I can't take this any longer, she tells me everything and I'm honestly nervous about what she is going to tell me.

"What?"

"I know there's something bothering you."

"I'm fine."

"Mads."

She groaned and looked down at her hands, "It's just... I don't know."

"Mads, trust me. What's going on?" I laughed shyly looking over at her before looking back at the road.